Vahid Redzic Blog

Blog post 1-Story of my life from the Bosnian war until now

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Hi, it’s so I want my voice to be heard, before I die because of the life I live in suffering, living hell and all the misery that has happened to me here in Sweden. My life has absolutely no meaning anymore, it’s just pure raw suffering in a torn body. I come from Bosnia and my childhood is overflowing with traumatic events that have broken me down all my life. The worst of all is guilt, the crime I have committed. I have been mentally tormented in anxiety because of the crime and all the other negative things that have happened to me throughout my life. I was the ultimate black sheep. There was a war, and I went through collective hell with everyone else where I got an injury to my left leg just above the knee on the outer thigh. Damage was limited and not so dangerous then. It was not my fault. I slept too deeply and only woke up in pain when it was too late. I thought it could not get worse than this. And so, I came to Sweden. I was grateful for everything I got from Sweden. I was grateful that I had an apartment two rooms and a kitchen, which I have even now. I was grateful that I have a job that gives me prosperity and thanks to this, I was able to buy food and some T-shirts. It gave me a feeling of happiness and security considering that I am in Western democracy Sweden with a dream life. I was grateful to Sweden that I can live in freedom where I am treated as a human being who has human rights like everyone else, where I am not judged by my name. Everything I own is old and I have never received anything from anyone, I have been poor all my life. But it’s all right, as long as I’m healthy and I’m happy. I have never wanted other people’s property. I know that what I earn through work is what no one can take away from me. I work like all other people to support myself. What I can say about myself is that I love life and I so want to live, be happy, have a family, have a normal life like all normal people. I’m not beautiful, good-looking, or smart, I’m full of weaknesses but it’s life that has made me like that. I have come to Sweden fully healthy in my psyche, body, and soul. Ok, I have suffered a minor injury to my left leg, but I had no mental problems. I was communicative and I had no problem with socializing with other people. I did not know what is and I never understood how someone can be mentally ill, to have social phobia among other things. I did not understand any of this before I came to Sweden. I’m not looking for someone to like or hate me and I do not care what others think of me. I just want the truth to come out about the crime I was exposed to. Time passed and unfortunately for me, terrible things happened in my life that I had no control over. I felt that my mistakes committed in my life will come out sooner or later and that the best thing for me is that I serve my sentence so that this stone falls from my heart. I started to feel mentally ill, and I did not know what was happening to me. I felt that my dreams have become strangely depressing, I never dreamed a single normal dream it felt like I did not even have a soul. I fall asleep and wake up as if I were a vegetable. I dreamed in my home country all my life in Bosnia, I have dreamed dreams, but when I came to Sweden I stopped dreaming and the little that I dream only arouses discomfort and nightmares. Fragments of words of foreign voices crept into my dreams with a few spoken words, over a long period of time. But I thought it was my imagination. It felt like I had no control over what I was

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thinking. I want to shake off the bad thoughts and think of something positive so that I can be normal like everyone else, but it did not work out. It was as if my thoughts decided for me what to think about and implemented more things that I should ponder. I ended up in bad habits and because I felt worse and worse, I ended up in alcohol abuse. I was afraid of the Police and felt that the day when I will lose my freedom is getting closer and closer to me. All this bad in my life, made me so isolated. I felt useless and that no one wants to be with me, so I took what is available to all of us and ended up in pornography addiction. Alcohol abuse and everything that was going on around me led to an accident where I injured myself seriously but very limited. It was awful. I thought, can it get worse than this? That it went to hell for me was due to the Police sneaking into my dreams, now I see in retrospect. They used my weaknesses, shame, and guilt towards me and reinforced them with their words so that I felt mentally ill more and more. Had they come and confronted me personally, I would not have been able to face the police while lying to them, because I was afraid of state authority. I had a great respect for the state because throughout my life, the media has convinced me that I should believe that the state is dignified and fair. So, if they are after me and the fact that I am aware that I have made a mistake then it did not occur to me that I should start questioning the state in any way. I had a divine idea of ​​the state, especially about Swedish Western democracy, which constantly talks about standing up for human rights and all equal values. I have never lied in my life, as it made me mentally tired to think all the time about what I have said. In addition, I would have been beaten if I had lied and to avoid all this, I always spoke the truth through my life and then I always felt good mentally. We have been told in the refugee reception center when we came to this country that it is normal here to go to a psychologist and that we should follow their advice so that we can process our traumatic memories from war. After we come from war, so I listened to their advice and started visiting the psychologist. I followed this advice in the hope that I would feel better. I blamed everything on war memory instead of crimes I have committed. Psychiatric care gave me medication for anxiety and that was the beginning of my medication for mental illness. I tested Risperdal and am almost suffocating to death. Ended with this started with Zyprexa and gained weight from 70 kg to 105 in less than a year. I was constantly hungry, tired, and sleepy most of the day. I was stunned could not wake up even though I knew I was asleep. Sometimes I woke up and my body was still asleep where I could not move for 2 or 3 seconds, and I was shocked with rapid breathing when I woke up completely and when I regained control of my body. When you take that medicine, someone can come into the apartment and pick up all the valuables without waking up. You gain weight in such a way that you get an inhuman hunger and craving for sweet and fatty junk food, and you just eat and eat and never stop. And there my dream of becoming slim and fit, having a nice body, was snatched away from me. You also get a little cold feeling from this medicine. One’s psyche is stunned over a long period of time, and one loses the ability to feel love, one becomes blunted if something terrible happens, so that one becomes indifferent to a certain extent in the face of catastrophic events in one’s own life. You lose focus where you are not really aware that you are in danger, for example. Negative side effects were catastrophic and after years I got Seroquel, the same thing there but a little

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gentler. Zyprexa and Seroquel are sleeping pills and nothing else in my experience. Regarding mental illness, everything is ok, and you are normal as long as there are no really serious problems in a person’s life. Then you start thinking too much and then you cannot sleep. If you do not sleep, then it becomes the brain overwhelmed and thoughts spin faster and faster and you get mentally ill. You collapse slowly if you do not confront your mistakes and fix problems. The time one lives under such conditions is the most dangerous thing a human being can be exposed to. Feelings of guilt evoke anxiety which in turn obliterates the qualities of one’s personality and if one tries to alleviate pain with alcohol and then one shames oneself in front of other peoples. Then you have more reasons to feel bad and it intensifies and gets even worse. If you are depressed and complain about bad weather, then it can help with cognitive therapy, but if you have the police behind you and your crimes committed mistakes in life that torment you then nothing on this planet can help and stop the thoughts fears guilt that goes in spin. Then it is in the first place that I recommend is Seroquel and if it cannot get one to sleep then it is good with Zyprexa. You will never be cured by those medicines. They are necessary when you have fallen ill to be able to sleep, otherwise it is pure rubbish. When you have fallen ill then just take them or go crazy. I am not saying that you should exclude them when you are in such a state. On the other hand, cognitive therapy is better than taking medication, then it means to me if I had gone directly to the police and if I had admitted everything when I came to Sweden then I would never have become mentally ill and then my life would have been saved. In any case, I stayed for 11 years until I once went to a hospital in Trollhättan where they have closed psychiatric care. I was terribly scared and felt under some kind of mental pressure, so I went there to talk to a psychologist because I felt bad. It was night and only they were open. I was going to admit all the crime to them, because it was easier for me to tell them than to the police. I had no choice anymore and want it to just come out somehow so that it gets out of the world once and for all. I was afraid of authority and the rubbish of value I have picked up from my home country and it will turn out that that fear will cost me dearly in my life. I did not know what the difference is between open and closed psychiatric care and what it means to have to do with them in reality. I assumed that they are something good and honest that helps people who feel bad. I did it just to be able to tell them about the crime I committed in my teens. Then I went into the closed psychiatric care as a ward that was on the 6th floor what I remember now. They gave me a paper to sign with my signature where I admit that I accept their laws and rules and I signed with my signature, without thinking about the significance of this signature. I talked to a younger woman and there was at least one more employee of those who have sat with us to listen to me. I talked to a younger woman and there was at least one more employee of those who have sat with us to listen to me. I was drunk after all alcohol, so it played a certain role in all this event. I could not say and utter a single word about that crime. I talked instead about other difficult things, the injuries, among other things, but not about crime. Most of our conversation has passed with me crying because I felt so bad mentally with anxiety and depression. I was too drunk, and they told me that I was feeling too bad and that I should have a room alone where I could sleep overnight. I was stunned. I was given two tablets as far as I can remember, by a male

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nurse who showed me this room. After a while he was on his way out and I asked him to stay a while longer because I was talking about my difficult experiences from my life. I cried while talking and then I fell asleep. The next day I woke up and it cleared in my head from alcohol intoxication. I went to them and said I want to go home I do not want to talk anymore because I realized that the cognitive therapy, I received earlier that night did not help me in any way. They said you can go home so I went to the door that was locked. I said can you open that door? They said no, first you have to talk to the chief doctor and if he lets you out, only then can you go home. You may stay here for a month or two to evaluate your mental state to see if you are a danger to yourself or others. You can sit down and wait until the Doctor comes. I went to the other side of the corridor where there was a sofa or chair. There I sat down and then I realized where I am. They talked to each other there. My heart was pounding. Panic broke out in me and fear. I calmly told myself no quick movements then they will think I’m crazy and then they will never let me out. Pretend you are unaffected pretend to be normal if you want to get out of here. Then they finally came and said Doctor is here. I went into his room where Doctor was sitting on the left side, in the middle sat a nurse and on the right side a younger male nurse and there I sat among them. I was terribly scared. They said you said all this, can you explain? I said that I felt bad and that I had drunk a bottle of red wine before I entered their department. but now I feel better, and I want to go home. I have booked an appointment for a visit to a psychologist in Uddevalla at the outpatient psychiatric clinic on Thursday, I think it was. I said it with the hope that then it will let me go home. I want to go home. Doctors said after we talked a little you can go home, so there a little with an angry look. That guy went out with me to open the door for me and said take care of you now. I went home and noticed that I had stab wounds on my right arm and thought why that and also a memory came from nowhere when I was in bed the next day. Probably an imagination but I happened to say this to friends when we had a party. I was not meant to say that, but it slipped out of me as that memory felt real to me, but at the same time I felt very bad mentally so even that I have imagined everything is possible as well. This event has triggered a growing fear that in turn has triggered “POSTTRAUMATIC STRESS SYNDROME” for me. I developed obsessive-compulsive disorder, psychosis, and a complete nervous breakdown due to anxiety. I felt obsessive-compulsive disorder that almost forced me to go into their hands again. I do not want to go to them, and I was afraid that I would be locked up there forever and my obsessive-compulsive disorder forces me exactly to this, that I should go there again. I fought against myself where I repeated to my family, I have to go there again and was in need of someone to calm me down and repeat it over and over again telling me that everything is ok, that I do not have to go there again because I will feel better. So, there was a struggle within myself, day after day while I felt worse and worse. I was terribly afraid that I would be locked up in a mental hospital for the rest of my life. I felt so bad and all this because of fear of Police authority. I have had social phobia for many years before all this in Sweden. In the end, everyone distanced themselves from me and I realized that the only way out for me is death, Suicide. To me, he’ll never ends. When I have filled in thick patient records in psychiatric care the last incredible darkness in came my life. I have felt bad, but I have never in my life seen anything that does

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not exist in reality. One night when I was sleeping, a male voice woke me up that was very loud to such an extent that it almost woke me up, but I was still asleep. and then he said to me “This is the police talking to you, then he asked, have you killed anyone?”. I answered, no I do not, and I would never do that, I said while I slept. You only answer questions automatically. Then the next day you remember everything you have said and talked about, but you cannot prevent and stop answering questions after you are not awake and aware that it is happening in this very moment. Another thing is that we cannot lie to them because the only thing we use of our brain when we sleep are our memories and it is about everything that we have experienced throughout our lives. So, they ask us, and we answer the truth for them about the event from our lives. We cannot lie to them. In order for us to be able to lie, we need to use our whole brain. So, my life changed in a single night where I have never heard voices in my life until I suddenly started hearing voices at once overnight. This is how they do it, what I have realized so far. They use some kind of technology that converts sound to low frequency so that it cannot be heard as ordinary sound. It is not heard in the room, but you only hear it if they point it at your head, to say it correctly they point it at your ears, and it is eardrums that register it as ordinary sound. Those sound waves go through everything. I do not see them, how they do it, I do not really know. But that it is going on and that it is happening to me, I am 100% sure and have no doubt about it. When they talk, it sounds like thoughts coming from outside. They talk to me about things I know nothing about that I have not thought of myself. They talk to me in exactly the same way as when I’m awake during the day and when I’ve talking to another human being. The difference between when I am awake and when I am asleep is in that they are awake, and they use their whole brain while I am helpless because I am asleep, and it is only fragments of my brain that they activate. Usually, I dream relaxed, and I do not wake up because I dream. In this way, we humans all sleep-in peace where our brain processes experiences from the previous day and we are rested the next day. Even if you are aware that the police have started talking to you and if you try not to reveal a secret, then he raises the volume when he asks so that you wake up halfway and that is when you perceive a proper question. That question falls into one’s memories as if it happened in reality. At such a high volume, he asks me, have you committed that crime in your life? Then I fight for my life just to be able to tell him a lie that I have not done. In any case, I tried to prevent them from getting the truth out of me at the beginning of the police investigation. Then I say no, I have not done that. Then they lower the volume and let me fall asleep deeper, and the opportunity to lie is no longer there. His question is the last thing I remember while sleeping deep and when I have slept deeper, then I forget it immediately. Then he asks me again. You did not tell the truth but imagine that this time you will tell the truth. If you have committed a crime. Then you tell everything. He asks and you answer him with pure truth. They already know by default in what frequencies the human ear hears the infrasound and how we react to that level of that sound. If they lower, it very low then we sleep deeply and we experience their voices as dreams because we have not been awakened. Then they enter our dreams unnoticed. We do not remember anything they have asked us while they are getting the truth from us. They can also use voice distortions where they can use the voices of people in

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our social circle and in this way, they trick us into thinking that we have dreamed of people around us. We experience as if people we know ask us and we answer questions. They ask a question and I answer loudly which means that you talk in your sleep, and they hear my answer in this way. It is human weakness and we all humans work in this way. In all my life I have not known that this is possible and have never heard of but now I know. The police would never be able to deal with crimes that people commit in this way where they say they have monitored and intercepted a person. Very few are so stupid that they would start talking loudly in their own home about crimes they have committed. If you have committed a crime, then it is assumed that you are monitored and intercepted. When you are exposed to this then you are so vulnerable that only parts of the brain are active. And not only that, but it also affects one’s mental well-being. Everything they say to one, everything is put into our subconscious and that is where we think, builds our plans for our future, where we choose which path, we should take in our lives and in the end, we act after this. This is exactly where they come in with their voice corrupting and misleading us in the direction they want. You cannot protect yourself against their words. It is extremely harmful to listen to a stranger’s words because it provokes us every day a little at a time. In addition, it is about our dreams where we should rest and relax while they interfere with our dream that prevents the brain from being restored to the next day. We may be the most peaceful person on the planet, but when they provoke with words you really should not hear, every night year after year for 15 years, then in the end you get pissed and angry. If you are angry, then you lose control and can make mistakes easier. That way, the police will know all our secrets. This is how they investigate people for crimes, and this is how people are exposed. They know what you like, hate what goals you have in life and what your plans are. They know where you are injured, where you are in pain. What mistakes have you made in your life. They know what product you are going to buy in a big shopping center, the next day. And they talk every night. This is the harmful thing about all this. Normally, we do what we do during the day, then we sleep and our brain processes that information and we are rested the next day. We remain ourselves, happy and we feel good mentally without outside influence. But in my case, I am awake during the day and later at night I process info from the previous day and at the same time I get new information from them. Even if what they say is not important, it is still information that disturbs and damages the brain. Imagine having a stranger talking to you. If you do not like or disagree with him then you stop having all contact with that person and then, you throw that person from your life and problems are solved. Imagine having him in your room when you sleep where he wakes you up halfway and asks about everything. And now you cannot throw him out of your life. You hear him but when you wake up there is no one there and out you see society where there are human rights and freedom. We are free but as soon as I fall asleep, they are back again. What is a problem is that words have meaning where you think, and you have to think about this as they have said to someone after it has been put in your subconscious and this is what makes you unable to recover? You are changing your personality and feeling bad. They last a little over a long time, so you get sick in the end. When they want, they can piss a person off and if it is a person who has a short stub, especially young people who have no life

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experience, so when you hear on the news that a man has been attacked completely unprovoked, it may just as well be because the person has been completely unprovoked attacked has happened to spit on or has made insulting comments to the person who is under police investigation. It is enough with this that triggers conflicts and fights and then they have a reason where they can detain a person and then you are eliminated by the state. These people are somewhere in Sweden safely protected with anonymity and the surveillance equipment they have they use in the same way as when soldiers use drones thousands of kilometers away. Darkness gives no protection from them; you cannot hide anywhere. Not even a hair has fallen from their head. They can enter our homes when it suits them. The policeman who talks to me, I think he talks to 40 other people at the same time, if not more than that and every single one of the 40 has ended up in prison, mental hospital, has taken his own life, or whatever. That they do this to me until I have confessed my crime, I think it’s fair and they have every right to do so, but when I have confessed my crime and they continue to do so and hurt me mentally then I think it is those who are criminals who commit crimes. Of course, there is no one who can reach and punish them, because it is not possible to prove that such a thing exists and is going on. Their goal was not to save me, but their goal was to deceive and injure me to death. The thing is, I just did not realize it until it’s too late. They do not harm people in a physical way, because then you can have evidence of it, and it would not look good that such an image of Sweden is spread in the world, but in this way they do it, only it is not possible to prove, and everything is OK. They want to do it and they beat us ordinary people, for all they can with lies and psychological torture. They do nothing but sit up all night and talk to those whom the state has chosen to crush, liquidate, eliminate, murder, or punish in one way or another. They have destroyed and driven people to commit murder, commit suicide, end up in prison, end up in mental hospital and they have done that to hundreds of thousands or millions of people. They have done all that for tax money that we ordinary people pay, and they do it against all of us and in the same way. And, when we start talking about this as I do now, for example, then we are mentally ill, and most people do not even dare to say that they hear voices after which they do not want to be branded as crazy. If we say something, then psychiatric care awaits preparation with a question (could it be that you have imagined something that does not correspond to reality?). So, power can run pure kills torture orgies on people and eliminate people even those who have not even committed any crime. Night after night I told him “I do not want to listen to you” but he does not explain himself to me, instead he just goes on and talks nicely to me and comments on events I have had during the day. But words mean instructions to actions. They use words as a suggestion where in this way they can lead one in the direction they want. They arouse fears, shame, guilt, joy, and happiness in their own purpose. What they have said to you is the first thing you remember the next day, whether you like it or not, you cannot help but think about what they have said because it is added deep into your subconscious. After 15 years, I have had enough of them. If several words make a sentence, then they have told me at least between two sentences, usually three and sometimes up to eight sentences per night. So, if we distribute those words then it can be approximately four sentences every night for 15 years is

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approximately 22,320 sentences as they have said to me, so it’s not strange that I get mentally ill and it’s not something I have imagined in my imagination, I’m sure 100%. You get angry, you breathe anger and hatred towards them. It’s like they’re provoking me to lose control and make a mistake, so they have a good reason to lock me in jail or mental hospital. They’re doing that and I can never recover and so it’s in a vicious circle. They can talk differently high on a scale from 0 to 10. On a scale of 0 they come into our dreams without us even knowing they are inside. You then dream a little strange dreams where they can use voices from the people who are part of our circle of acquaintances. At level 1, you hear them. They have revealed themselves because they want people to know that they are the ones talking to me. It’s their goal and you remember what they said to you, but they do not even disturb sleep. At 5 they increase the volume when they talk, and they wake up one more, so you have to start taking medication because you start to feel bad mentally. At 10 they raise even more, then they wake one up almost completely, but you still sleep and then they disturb your sleep very much. You remember it in the same way as if you had been awake because you are almost awake and it takes a lot of beating on the brain, you get scolded exhausted and tired. You experience it as a disaster and then even medicines no longer help. You have a choice to commit suicide, stop in a mental hospital or go and admit your crime. They told me “You will shake bars you have to admit your crime”. They hold this way for a while. For a long time, they have been talking to me in a terrible way. They scolded me and suddenly one night they started talking kindly to me and the first night when they started talking to me kindly, I said, can you talk to me like that all the time? They said no, we will only do that once you have admitted your crime. They started talking nicer, they told me that terrible things were going on around me. They said to me “Vahid you are a victim, free yourself from your family they suck life out of you. We’ll make you whole again! We’ll make a man of you again! We will give you your life back”! When they talked to me on a scale of 10 loudly, I almost woke up but still not and I remembered this so strongly. I felt so bad output. They talked ugly and demeaning to me and after only one night on scale 10 I said just stop, I will admit crime, just stop” and then it went a little calmer. They always said several different alternatives to me about a sentence for example they said to me, they have done this to you, then the same night or the next day, they have not done this to you and so they repeat 70 or 80 times both options about alt to me over a long period of time. I had to choose what to believe in the end, so choices were always mine, but they have affected me greatly. It’s not like they decide who I am. Who I am and what I believe in and like so, I decide? I do not blame everything on them. They talk about things that you would never come up with. They never told me to go and hurt anyone. Had they done this then it would have saved my life. I would never believe in them ever again. I would choose another path in my life immediately. They do not control one, but they use mortgages and penalties. They say something to me and if I go on this, I do as they please. When I think a little better, I have done everything the way they want. Indirectly, they force me in the direction they want me to make decisions that lead me straight into the grave in the long run. They comment on everything you believe in, even what you have for sexual orientation. If they comment on something I do not want to talk about, then for me it is like they are questioning everything

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for me. All the media Rubbish advertising and Government propaganda about the equal value of all human beings, equality, humanity, humanism, and human rights all this feels like it does not apply to me and that does not exist for me. They want you to not even have an opinion, about anything. They want to show you that they decide over you even inside your dream, personality and in your soul or consciousness. They want to show that I’m not free. They simply break me down. In this way, they can slaughter one’s psyche into small pieces, they can make a person commit suicide, get one to do anything indirectly, all with words of suggestion. Change in every possible way without them having even met one in real life. As soon as you start dreaming, they come in and steer the dream in the direction they want. For example, if you start dreaming a nice dream about a person and then you hear him say no, he does not like you. This is what he wants to do with you, you just think so. For example, they describe an event when you have started dreaming where you are in this place inside the dream and then he says how the person you have liked starts chasing you with knives instead and then you run around and are scared until you wake up. You have then had a real nightmare and when you wake up you remember this nightmare, which is accompanied by anxiety. In this way, regardless of whether you want to or not, you begin to doubt that person, even if you know you have only dreamed a dream. This is how the police break relationships and bonds between people, to other people, or even family. In the end, the only memories you remember the next day are those. In this way, they file my everyday life night after night year after year every night. In addition to this, they sabotaged my Computer, TV, internet, Windows, changed passwords on Hotmail back and forth so that I have it clear to me that it is not imagination but real people who monitor me. I could not handle this hell. I tried to kill myself several times, not really but want to do this, to make them stop what they are doing. I bought a rope and told those I will commit suicide. They told me; commit suicide we will not save you. Go to the police station and admit all the crime and then we will stop. They drove me crazy. I was going to hang myself to death, but I could not do it. They pushed me mentally to the breaking point while at the same time encouraging me not to commit suicide. They encouraged me to go to the police station and confess to the crime because that’s the only right thing I can do. I could not admit crime and I did not really want to admit. Then I came to insight where I saw a single way out of mental suffering, and it is to commit suicide. I told them to buy a rope and to hang myself in the forest on a tree. I was extremely depressed. Then they made me a street show, where they showed me every step, I will take the next day. The thing is that they lead me through the course of my plans and when I have woken up then I do not remember this particular moment. But I act instinctively in the way I have described to them, because that was my plan. So, they know exactly what I will do, while I do not know. In this way, they can integrate into my actions, and they have people who, for example, come next to me in an affair or whatever, as strangers and say a sentence next to me, so that I can hear it and then my memory is activated immediately and then I feel the feeling of Déjà vu. In any case, all that street performance was for me to be convinced that they are trying to stop me from hanging myself, while in fact all it was for them to want to build my trust in them and for me to see them as friends. In this way, they make me do what they want. So, when I got home

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from the store, I took the rope out of the car I bought, and I went into the woods. I knotted it on a tree and put it around my neck. But I did not make it to hang myself. Another time, I have tied a soft cloth rope, around the neck and the other end I have tied in hanging clothes storage where I stand upright. I did not commit suicide, but I want to do it and it was on test only. Then when I tightened the rope suddenly in a second, I lost all power in my body. At the same time, I almost lost consciousness. I used the last atom of power in my body to get up and let go of that rope. I was a hair’s breadth from committing suicide in an accident. I realized that I could not commit suicide in this way. Because of their police torture, I had had Propavan sleeping pills, prescribed to me for a long time, and I still had them. I told them, I cannot hang myself but since I have also contracted obsessive-compulsive disorder due to the police then I have obsessive-compulsive disorder that automatically drives me to commit what I am afraid of and which I do not really want to do. I took a bunch of tablets out of that pack, and I put on a pile of a glass of water next to my bed on the bedside table. But, because when I have fallen asleep, I am aware that I have the lethal dose of Propavan next to me on the left side of the bed and due to obsessive-compulsive disorder, I will take those tablets unconsciously in the same way that I unconsciously reveal to them, the crime that I have committed, completely against my will. I did so for a few nights but at the same time was afraid that I could take them while I slept, because it was very possible such a condition where it could happen that I do it in reality for real. They said, nothing is worth committing suicide for. Take those tablets away from there, and in the end, I came to the realization that it is not a good idea. They pushed me mentally to the breaking point while at the same time encouraging me not to commit suicide. They encouraged me to go to the police station and confess to the crime because that’s the only right thing I can do. I failed to admit crime. It is a blockade that makes it almost impossible to utter the words in front of them. At this time when they have said that horrible things are going on around me then I came to buy such amateur surveillance equipment to prove to myself, if it is really true as they say, so I did. I took credit from the bank and bought all that from www.Amazon.com , with the money and got the things sent home to me after a while. Everything worked but the camera that was new was broken. How I even tried so it was dead, though all it was brand new. So, I could not get that proof. I did not have more money to buy new and there was not that large supply of such stuff 15 years ago. In the end, I threw everything in the trash. Then I told myself it’s enough, I cannot listen to them anymore, while they obliterate and erase me mentally and also in my whole life, I have wanted this to happen. I will admit everything to the Police. They will judge me, and I will serve my sentence. But then I will be free like all other people, but before I do, I had a plan to go on holiday to Bosnia. They told me, do not go there, you will be killed there. No, I said, I’m going to go because I did not believe in them, so I went there anyway. Not much happened at home in Bosnia, apart from a wonderfully pleasant event. I went for a walk, excursion into nature with friends, on the highest mountain in my hometown Prijedor on the Kozara mountains. It is truly unbelievably beautiful and gigantic. Then after a while, three people came, a man who had an ax in his hand and two girls. What a coincidence I thought. I talked for a while with one of them and she was really beautiful. Today is 2022-04-18 and since I have learned English while I wrote

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this blog for 5 to 8 years so what I do now is that I correct spelling and grammar, so you can read it better. But I will also say what I did not want to say then, when I wrote this blog post. Before I went to Bosnia, I trained at the Gym with strength training, I ran on treadmills, but I also trained MMA fight for one or two months at a Uddevalla Jiu Jitsu Club, and it was Swedes for the most part. I have heard that people who practice martial arts are dangerous and that you have no chance against them, but I did not believe it. But there, I have realized that they are not just dangerous. They are guaranteed death themselves. They are death itself and they can only kill me with their hands. But, in any case, I too was naturally strong in my body thanks to all the training, so I managed to throw them away from me when they are over me. On the other hand, even if I lie on them, they do something with their hands and then I end up in the grip of their death where they lead me in such a position in 15 seconds. It’s absolutely incredible. In any case, they taught me some death grips and a few things, so I also became better at defending mi against ordinary people. What I want to say is that I had that campaign spirit in me at the time. For some strange reason, that girl came to me and started talking to me. We sat next to each other. She told me that she comes from Denmark if I remember well now, and that the other blonde girl is her Danish friend. She said she does not understand Bosnian, so she has to be with her all the time. By the way, her Danish friend wore the Bosnjak traditional headscarf, I do not know why she wore it. The girl I talked to was Bosnjak like me. She had very beautiful eyes, very beautiful face, very beautiful hair, she was slim, and she was as big as I was, so she was, beautiful, wonderful, amazingly amazing in every possible way. Her voice was so terribly beautiful. I was in heaven. If heaven had really existed, that’s the moment with her. She has made me the happiest man in the world, for a short while. She told me she’s from Kozarac which is under that mountain, and she said what her name is. But I was stunned by her beauty and how beautiful she is to such an extent that I do not even remember what she said about her name. I was instantly in love with her. She asked me to take a picture of her with a mobile phone or camera, do not remember now what it was and then we got up and then an embarrassing problem arose for me. When I took that camera and while I was going to take a picture and even before this while I was talking to her, I started to get a sexual arousal. I got so excited for her. So, I did not know what to do. It was about seconds. In a second, panic broke out in me, and I quickly took a picture, while my sexual arousal became worse. I sat down immediately with such a bizarre movement so that she would not notice this. I really wanted to live my life with that woman. It’s the kind of woman I’ve dreamed of all my life, but I never got that opportunity. I would have been happy with her if she had loved me. We did not even talk for more than a few short minutes before my friends suddenly decided to go home immediately. I had no expectations that anything would happen between me and her, because it was just a small conversation between me and her. I have it suggestive in my head that nothing good will ever happen to me anyway, so I’m used to nothing happening anyway. In addition, they are like strangers to me and then I also decided to go with them. But I said I would like to meet her again. So, she said we could meet by the pool in Kozarac. The next day I was with my King, my most beautiful son in the whole world and then he was little, and then we happened upon her, and she too had a boy of her cousins ​​maybe. I was

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glad to see her. It has not even been 10 seconds and then a guy came on Kawasaki z 1000 and stopped a meter next to us and he started give gas on the motorcycle at idle, as if he wants to either impress her, while I also tried to impress her by saying that I had exactly such a motorcycle, but I have sold it. Even today, I still pay debt to the bank for the impulsive purchase. I also had behind thoughts that all this is a street performance arranged by Swedish police. She said she should be at the pool so we can see each other there. We met there; we talked a bit. I tried to approach her, but she kept a clear distance, so I felt a bit like an idiot. I thought, who the hell are you, that I should run after you? I am such a person that I never ask anyone for anything. In addition, I have the terrible social phobia, so it creates blockages in my psyche. I have different fears in social contexts and therefore I avoid contact. But I also had the thought in my head, that maybe it’s like the police told me that people want to kill me there. So, I thought, is not it also arranged. But I did not know. She wants to keep in touch with me but when I try to approach her, she keeps me at a good distance. I was disappointed and when my son and I were going home, I met her on the street outside the pool. She asked if we were going home? I replied that we were going home. She said, do you want to come to the fair. It was such carousels if I remember correctly now. She said, we can see each other here but my friend has to be with me all the time. Then I realized that it was not a love affair. She is either afraid to be alone with me, or Bosnian primitive Muslim peasants have spread rumors about how much I am mentally ill. Or she is part of a conspiracy to drag me into the dark on the carousel, where Bosnjak Muslim savages are to liquidate their Muslim brothers Vahid. It may also be that it was not so. But life has taught me that if it looks too good then it’s probably not true. It’s just too good to be true. Good things do not happen to me. So, she asked me if you want to come. I said, you know what? I’m coming. In my mind I thought, Bitch came and waited for me. Of course, I’m not crazy about going there. I had a bad feeling. But personally, I beg you for forgiveness handsome if you are reading this. You probably have nothing to do with this. But my life is different from any life that people have experienced. Everyone just wants to kill me. That night when I was sleeping, he started telling me also there in Bosnia and he said she is our girl. We’ve arranged her for you. She wants to see you. She wants to be with you. It was not kind of you to promise her that you would come and then you choose not to meet her. Then he said, Vahid take your child and flee to Sweden again, you will not live longer. I was exhausted listening to him. I am tormented and I am sweating from the torture with his words that disturbed my dream and makes me tired of physical collapse, so I said, “I’m not feeling well because of you, why are you talking to me, why are you not stopping”? He said “as soon as you wake up pack your things and say you want to go to Sweden again. You will not live long”. That night I slept for about four hours. So, I listened to him and the next day I said I wanted to go to Sweden and somehow, I was on my way back terrified. I would never have done that, not even in my wildest imagination of my own free will if it were not for the fact that they were talking to me. By the way, I forgot to say. Before I went on holiday to Bosnia, I told them I would confess to the crime when I came from Bosnia. So, I drove from Bosnia to Sweden, while I slept only 4 hours. In the end, I came back to Sweden dead tired. The first day I rested and that night they did not say a word. They let me sleep in peace. The

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other day I thought it was time to go and say everything to the police. I have expected to be sentenced to prison and I have reconciled myself to that thought. But the most important thing for me was that after this prison sentence, I will be free forever. No one will ever again have anything that can be used against me as a blackmail shadow that hangs over me all the time. I went to the Police, and I followed them to the second floor where I got to talk to a female police officer and on the left side sat a male police officer who was a hole in some work. I could barely say a word, but in the end, I got it out of me, and I admit. I had no choice. I said the worst and they said to me, are you going to a psychologist? I said I do this, so they said go and talk about the other crime with them. We’ve got what we want to hear from you. You will not be judged. After two days I was angry that they kept talking to me at night and besides, I could not believe in my eyes that it is true so I thought it cannot be true. I did not believe my eyes and that it is true that I am free, so I went there again and talked to a policeman where I told him. I want to be convicted in court, say this to court. He told me you’re free. It is statute barred. They had all the time in the world to report this and they have not done so. If they do this, we will contact you. In addition, he checks his arm clock as if he does not have time to talk to me and that I should go. And no, there’s nothing I did not say. I’ve said just about everything, so if anyone thinks there must be something more, there is not. I told him when we were heading out into the hallway “I have confessed to the crime now and I do not intend to repeat this again in the future when it suits them.” I told the other thing to the psychologist and there was one last thing and then he said at night, you did not say that. Go and say it too. And when I told you about the last crime, the stone fell of my heart. I was overjoyed, I laughed with happiness when I left. I’m free now. I immediately felt an exhilaration that is so gigantic and overwhelmingly filled with pure happiness. The guilt and anxiety that has wiped out my psyche and that has made me fall ill with social phobia, depression, psychosis, obsessive-compulsive disorder, suicidal thoughts and more, disappeared at once. Throughout my life I have been mentally ill where my psyche has been crushed into small components which in turn have caused my life to fall apart and collapse into rubble. The anxiety and tension I feel in my chest, who ate me from within my whole life, disappeared as if it had never been there. Depression disappeared that day and that moment outside that door, as if it had never been there. Now I am free, and I was free at least from guilt. The depression disappeared at once. I was cured of the Depression and the whole mess of range of various mental illness symptoms. I finally feel mentally normal and healthy. What was left was social phobia, which is the product of all the stress due to the traumatic event that I have experienced throughout my life. I can’t really shake off social phobia. There was nothing more I could do. That was it, now everything worked flawlessly at home computer tv internet. Everything was in perfect order. But they keep talking to me. At this point, I no longer thought about the girl I happened to meet on that mountain. It was a pure coincidence for people walking there constantly. I wish her happiness, but I’m not a man enough to have the happiness of having someone like her in my life. That’s why it’s out of my life and that’s why I did not think of her anymore. And they said when I slept, someone wants to talk to you. This is the girl you’ve met; do you want to talk to her? I said I want to. Then I hear her say, hey, she said a few sentences. and I said AAAAAAAA what a beautiful

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voice. She introduced herself as the girl I happened to meet and that she is a special person that I have already liked and that she is very rich as well. She asked me, why did you not come there when you promised me to come there? It was not nice of you. I’ve been waiting for you for many hours. Then she talked to me about a little different topic. Since I have no control over my behavior while I sleep, she started to question certain things and I started to distrust her. I perceived her as being against me, so I uttered swear words at her. (Fuck you mother fucker, what do you want? If only I had a chance to hit you with legs in your head once, I would kill you right away) – (Jebem ti mater u picku, sta hoces ti? Da mi je da te odvalim nogom u glavu samo jedan put ubio bi te odmah) And she said, ooooooooh, there came that side of you, as colleagues have said. Then she started using the same methods as them. She asked something and I do not want to answer, but when she said, answer me the question? Then I started to answer by force. Because that’s how it works when you sleep. You just answer. Immediately after that, she started smearing me with how I am a victim and blah, blah, blah and then I fell in love with her again.  So, I thought on the one hand I have my life where I am in danger according to them and on the other hand, I have someone I like and who is also rich, who wants a relationship with me. In any case, they made me believe that. They have promised me a life of success where I will live in prosperity under one condition, that I stay away from everyone. I just need to keep living as usual and wait for court as they said I cannot escape. She said that we can be together after the police investigation is completed. I said OKAY because I have no control over myself when I sleep, I’m afraid I can say something bad to you, so I do not want to ruin the relationship we have now together. I want to meet you like all normal people when I’m awake. She said OK it can take a few years said Police Colleagues sitting next to me. I said of course I’m aware of that. She said that if I want to talk to her, she’s here. I said I could say something bad to you and because I have no control over me, while I sleep, I want you to go. I want you to go so I do not ruin our relationship. She said OK then I go, but I’m waiting for you. Bye see you. All this happened 15 years ago. These voices police investigators told me it will be a court but not when you want but when we are done with the entire police investigation. You cannot avoid this even if you want to. In the beginning, I was fairly normal. I withdrew from alcohol and cigarette addiction as soon as I released myself from that guilt. I continued to take Seroquel in the hope that my social phobia would disappear and that I would become normal as before I came to Sweden. I took them for several years and realized that they do not help me in any way with social phobia. The medications no matter which one I took, not a single one has helped me with anything at all. I was cured of mental illness when I became free from guilt and that is the only, cognitive therapy that works best of all. Arrange problems and you are automatically healthy. Due to constant fatigue, overweight and pointlessness to continue taking Seroquel, I decided to stop taking it because it slowly took my life by being overweight, so I stepped down with it and stopped completely. It was the best thing I’ve done in my life. I trained a lot after that I did not get tired due to medication. Without the poison from psychiatric care, I lost weight and felt much better. Life came back to me. So now I was without depression and without medication, it was perfect. I had no more reason to feel bad. Going to a psychologist again and having something to do with them was

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completely out of the question for me, because I had nothing more to say and nothing that was consuming my soul. To me, the police and psychiatric care are the state. They have chased me, crushed me, and infinitely more destroyed me mentally in order for me to admit my crime. I have done what I have acknowledged to them, and they have fulfilled the purpose for me as they should. Actually, psychiatric care and their cognitive therapy have not helped me feel better in any way. I do not think they help anyone at all. It’s just a matter of releasing feelings of guilt and anxiety and then you will be healed. I feel much better at home than having to deal with them ever more in my life. Strength has returned to my body. Without medication, I was not sleepy and tired for whole days anymore. But I lived in solitude there because of circumstances I could not even own a car. Someone had put a big bolt under my front left car tire right after I started doing what they want. I was afraid I might get something much more dangerous under my car, so I sold it and now I only had Bus options. It was perfectly ok for me to go by bus. It has rained like a downpour from those who talk to me, with “warnings”. They warned me of dangers that I should stay away from, so that I do not have an accident. They pretended to me that they had been kind to me, protecting my life. That I should believe in them and continue to follow their advice. Throughout my life, I have seen reality in black and white, evil and goodness so far in any case. I had confidence in the police from the beginning, so I thought they are fair and honest where they just follow justice. Therefore, I went on the trick blowing. Years passed for me, one by one. At New Year’s celebrations, I have usually been alone. Some years I have gone out to see fireworks and some years at New Year’s I have gone to bed depressed at 23:00 and then I have listened to fireworks banging down in complete solitude in the hope that one day in the future I will meet it woman I love and that I should have a better life. While they continued to talk to me night after night commenting on events I have had during the day. I personally am not a traitor; I have never betrayed anyone and will never do so. They are the ones who have made me doubt. I felt that I was in danger and then comes the instinct where you try to protect and save your life. They have cut contact to my family, my friends and automatically to my country because I have no one to go to there. They have changed the image of me for people in my home country. It may be that there are always people who wants to skin me alive, but I am still the person I have always been, and I love my country Bosnia. So now I was in a situation where every time I want to be reconciled with my family they say to me, “you will be killed if you go to your family”. I cannot go to them, do not believe in anyone. They said continue living as usual and wait. While people lived their lives in social contexts, I lived in the middle of loneliness and I just keep quiet, they said the woman is waiting for you, so I have been waiting. It is like this that I am neither smart nor an Angel, but I have never committed a criminal crime in Sweden, and I came to Sweden in 1993. I have never stolen anything not even a plastic bag in the store. I have never looked at anyone wrong, I have never said anything derogatory to another human being. To me, all people are equally worthy regardless of Race Religion or political opinion and so on. I’m not from the criminal world, nor am I from the alleged honest police force. I have empathy for other people, and I would never hurt anyone else but therefore I value my own life very highly. No matter what happens, just does not hurt me and everything is ok. I loved this

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country, believed in the Swedish State, liked the Swedish people. I saw Sweden as the largest democracy on the whole planet. I was grateful to be able to come here. It is the state they do everything right, who should you believe if you should not believe in the police which is the Swedish state. They have provided and filled me with nice words, they raised and built on my self-confidence. They pretended to be very friendly just so that I would stick together in life and believe in them and that I would continue to follow them. Time passed and I did as they said. I lived my life as usual, I kept quiet. They have tricked me into hoping for that woman and I hoped and hoped and continued to hope. Years passed and they said we need more time 1 year, 2 years 3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12, 13! There was the possibility of a new relationship or at least sex with a female creature, but they told me, drop this there is a woman waiting for you. There was one thing I did not know about what it means to live in solitude but on the other hand they knew it very well. It’s almost like torture. You fall apart without social contact. It’s like stopping being a human being. It was always the same year after year. They made me believe that I saw them as a support. They said we are not your friends; we are the police, and I was aware of that. But still, I saw them a bit like my family. Every time I want to go to friends or family then they started warning me. They warn me of something in words when I sleep and then the next day if I am about to commit unknowingly wrong or expose myself to danger then they block internet connection to TV and computer. Then when I back away from making the mistake that will break my loneliness, then everything works perfectly again. They have taught me how to recognize the real warning of danger. Of course, it can be a real mistake in internet traffic but for me it was always like that all the time. When I do as they want, then everything works well. So, they warned me about stuff that was not even really immediate danger. Hundreds of times I have wanted to go back to my family and then they say, “they will kill you if you go to them”. They have even provoked me 500 times for at least 15 years, one provocative for a day. I then never understood why they do it. Usually, I go to training because I like it, but it works well when they have provoked me too. Running helps me get out the anger they have caused, it helped me every time so active is physical activity. Running or walking longer distances 8 km per day for 5 days, has an infinitely better effect than the antidepressant and antidepressant medications that you get from Psychiatric care. You do not poison yourself; you just feel better and better with each passing day. It is a safe and guaranteed proven from my experience to get out of the deadly depression, but under the condition that you fix the problem that eats you from within. Then you have to stop taking alcohol and drugs if you are now abusing it. If you do that then you will get well and you will feel good again. Then you iron in the calendar every day that has passed without alcohol, cigarettes and you see every day as a victory where you have managed to live without the dependence on this poison for another day, until you finally notice that desire or dependence it has completely disappeared. When they want to get me in a better mood then they say encouraging words to me where they make me almost cry, they are so good at it. I never allowed my anger to pass over another person who has not done anything to me. In the end, 11 years have passed, and I was pissed off, tired and bored so I told them that they and that woman can go to hell. I ended up being a nervous wreck who has lost human qualities and they said there is

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no woman waiting for you, so I make an effort to see if that’s true. I explored and searched and realized it was true. The woman I’ve been waiting for was not real. At first tears were about to well up then after 5 seconds there was instead laughter when I thought of all the years in solitude and what all the terrible things have happened to me in my life. So now I had nothing to hope for more but living alone for such a long time has an expensive price. It has caused me to simply break down in my social ability to relate to meeting a woman at all, social phobia. Even the contact to everyone I have and feel has in some strange way died thanks to police voices and that I have lived my life in solitude for so many years. I became more isolated and now I am almost programmed to be alone. Getting in touch with someone feels almost impossible to me as if something has died in me. I’m just falling apart. The only place I could see naked female body was the internet. There was everything possible to see. They have witnessed and commented on everything with me. All this made me go to hell, so I became desperate. Loneliness was the only thing I knew. But they came in every night. I’ve told them a dozen times in 15 years, I do not want to listen to you do not want to judge me what the hell do you want from me. They said “you would go crazy if we quit now. But they came in every night. We are here to help you. You would not make it without us. We do all that and talk to you for your sake”. So, I have lived bored, tired of them and exhausted. The only thing that was in my life was the Police and the Police investigation. For two more years and it became 13 years of my life with a police voice. All my attention and focus were knocked out and was completely gone. I became desperate, instead of having a woman so now because of the long life in celibacy I did not dare to get social contact with a new woman because of my social phobia which has become infinitely many times worse now. So, I replaced it with pornography instead. And the rubbish I looked at has poisoned my mind and changed me and shaped me according to what I looked at. I looked at what will be my coffin of death. I thought Sweden is a modern country, I see, and nothing is foreign here. Since I have lived as a single for 13 years, maybe I could try sex toys instead. I’m really not proud of this. So, I did what I bought and threw away the next day. None of this was dangerous, and I have not tested the whole six toy shop there were a few. After 13 years in solitude, disaster finally came. A long time ago, 10 years ago it could be, I have happened to see such so-called Electro stimulation Estim six toys, but I was not desperate in any way and used my common sense and thought this could be dangerous it says that it is the latest, the groundbreaking, the new and I do not really know how long back in time it has been so I did not buy it then. But now I was bored so I thought, this still exists and if they sell it even now, then it is certainly not dangerous. The state would not allow the sale of stuff that could harm the population. It is the state they have institutions that control everything. These people are selling those products. They pay tax to the state and then the state has a responsibility and in addition they have the electrical safety agency. Had it been dangerous then they would have removed it a long time ago, I thought. I thought as they on http://www.Sinful.se , show their face then they probably have nothing to hide. If they advertise a product, then they advertise every single one in their range. But for safety’s sake, I’ll check so I googled if it could be dangerous. I tested all sorts of words on Google and each time I got advertising how good it is. I flipped page after page but there was no warning. If I have to say if I have

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been warned by those who talk to me then I can say that all the years, they have talked to me they have made an effort but now is the first and only time they have not done this. They said so in a calm and quiet voice at a very low volume “do not buy this you will hurt yourself.” I thought that in the worst case I could get hurt but not that the body would be injured. Had it been dangerous then it would be talked about in media television, newspapers internet I thought. So, they could talk to me for 1 year, I would never take this warning seriously. When I was going to buy it, it was a good idea to buy it”. Had they done as they used to do with the slightest hint for example, it would have been enough with a raised voice, interrupted internet connection then I would understand that this is something deadly and I would back off. So, I googled and came to http://www.Sinful.se . They use advertising in such a way that they sell one on low current that uses 3 aaa batteries that cost 239 kronor and they sell another that runs on 9 volts for over 1000 crowns. There was no warning other than that it can give strong electrical impulses, which is no warning at all. This means that it can give a strong impulse but not to harm the body in any way. For that information, nowhere on this planet exists. When I had to choose between the two, I chose to buy the Nexus Estim Electro -Stim 9 volt. I did not choose it because of 9 volts for me it was just a small battery, where I have no idea what it means 9 volts. There was no thought in my head that it could be dangerous. I chose it because it is much more expensive. I thought what is more expensive is better too. Battery-9 volts and the kind where Mystim Rodeo Robin cursed string. I paid immediately but then I regretted after a minute so I want to cancel the purchase and buy instead the smaller Zeus Palm power box Electro 2xaaa batteries so I can test it instead if it can be actually dangerous. I emailed them directly after 1 minute, but I got no response. After 5 minutes, I received an email from Sinful stating, we have received payment and packages are sent to you. So, they did not even respond to my email. I literally felt nothing about the sexual path, and I felt a little numb and then I stopped immediately. It did not hurt in any way. and I hit it to the floor. It did not break even though I beat for all I can. Their advertisement states that it is made of high-quality material which is an advertisement that will increase people’s willingness to buy it. It is made in high quality because it did not break so animals in Sinful are right about this. Then I threw it away and realized that I’m gone on a fatal criminal fraud. I have been the victim of a fatal crime. That thing has nothing to do with sex and has no place for sale to people and in the human body. Had I bought it smaller with 2xaaa batteries then permanent damage would still occur, but I would be damaged much less. Even if I were to last 60 minutes even in this case, I would get the injuries I have received with this one in 15 minutes. Then I sat down and thought. I can imagine what cheers there are now among those who speak to me. We trapped him after 13 years. In the end we got him, but I am convinced that they hold me from the first day when I came to Sweden. When they talked that night, they pretended to be untouched, they told me” We will take them”. They told me you went on this, continue to live as usual “. I was devastated, I did not even know that nerves can die at all at once and that it was even possible. It does not matter where you put it on the body. Where you put it that nerves die and not just nerves, but cells vessels the body’s internal organs are damaged just as well, and it does not even hurt when you test it. One can take the whole body away from a

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human, with the Electro stimulation, crime products. Injuries go right through the body in depth, and I got external and internal injuries it was a terrible transformation from having a healthy fully functioning body and then experiencing that I lost it in a quarter and that thing is legal is inconceivable to me. I was completely amazed. Now I think all of it on pretend help from those in all these years was to get all my attention and focus knocked out where they invest everything at once when I am going to buy this so that I buy what is worst possible. I had no idea what a 9-volt battery is. And before I bought this, I was wondering. I thought every time when someone helps someone and who is a stranger then there is always a back thought. I thought they might build a trap for me but what could it be, so I thought and thought and did not come up with any. So, I came to the conclusion that everything is peace and joy. They said to me, “Vahid you think the police are building traps for people, we do not. We’re just investigating crimes.” Now it is so obvious to me, “the mighty timeless trap that was meant for me has been waiting for me and has finally reached me”. After a few days I was devastated angry so I thought I should report this. To whom did I come to the Swedish Consumer Agency. In my desperation, I could not just go over this as if it is not a big deal because it is a Disaster. I described it and was close to giving my name, but I still decided that I should be anonymous. So, to my surprise they posted this in interpretations, they said they have passed it on to the Electrical Safety Board which in turn has not stopped the sale of all such products. It never struck me that they should do it. After that, I have seen that those at Sinful have removed it from sale but have continued to sell the other similar products that have only a different color as if there had been something wrong with the one, I received and not with the others. I have seen that they have removed it from sale, then they have started selling it again, then they have removed it again and now that they see that I have reported them, they will sell it again, probably. Anyway, days went by one by one, then months went by and then after 6 months it started to appear visible to the eye burns. At first, I was not sure but as more days passed it became more and more visible and eventually, they became completely visible. I should have looked at Wikipedia instead of Google. If you are looking for the truth, then you should go to Wikipedia and if you want to find your death then you can Google it. I had no idea what Google is for. (While now when I correct grammar, I know that it is the power of the world and the rich elite that murder us ordinary people and they also murder our children. Their advertisement states that it is made of high-quality material which is an advertisement that will increase people’s willingness to buy it. It is made in high quality because it did not break so animals in Sinful are right about this. Then I threw it away and realized that I’m gone on a fatal criminal fraud. I have been the victim of a fatal crime. That thing has nothing to do with sex and has no place for sale to people and in the human body. Had I bought it smaller with 2xaaa batteries then permanent damage would still occur, but I would be damaged much less. Even if I were to last 60 minutes even in this case, I would get the injuries I have received with this one in 15 minutes. Then I sat down and thought. I can imagine what cheers there are now among those who speak to me. We trapped him after 13 years. In the end we got him, but I am convinced that they hold me from the first day when I came to Sweden. When they talked that night, they pretended to be untouched, they told me” We will take them”. They told me

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you went on this, continue to live as usual “. I was devastated, I did not even know that nerves can die at all at once and that it was even possible. It does not matter where you put it on the body. Where you put it, there nerves die and not just nerves, but cells vessels the body’s internal organs are damaged just as well, and it does not even hurt when you test it. One can take the whole body away from a human, with the Electro stimulation, crime products. Injuries go right through the body in depth, and I got external and internal injuries it was a terrible transformation from having a healthy fully functioning body and then experiencing that I lost it in a quarter and that thing is legal is inconceivable to me. I was completely amazed. Now I think all of it on pretend help from those in all these years was to get all my attention and focus knocked out where they invest everything at once when I am going to buy this so that I buy what is worst possible. I had no idea what a 9-volt battery is. And before I bought this, I was wondering. I thought every time when someone helps someone and who is a stranger then there is always a back thought. I thought they might build a trap for me but what could it be, so I thought and thought and did not come up with any. So, I came to the conclusion that everything is peace and joy. They said to me, “Vahid you think the police are building traps for people, we do not. We’re just investigating crimes.” Now it is so obvious to me, “the mighty timeless trap that was meant for me has been waiting for me and has finally reached me”. After a few days I was devastated pissed off, angry so I thought I should report this. To whom did I come to the Swedish Consumer Agency. In my desperation, I could not just go over this as if it is not a big deal because it is a Disaster. I described it and was close to giving my name, but I still decided that I should be anonymous. So, to my surprise they posted this in interpretations, they said they have passed it on to the Electrical Safety Board which in turn has not stopped the sale of all such products. It never struck me that they should do it. After that, I have seen that those at Sinful have removed it from sale but have continued to sell the other similar products that have only a different color as if there had been something wrong with the one, I received and not with the others. I have seen that they have removed it from sale, then they have started selling it again, then they have removed it again and now that they see that I have reported them, they will sell it again, probably. Anyway, days went by one by one, then months went by and then after 6 months it started to appear visible to the eye burns. At first, I was not sure but as more days passed it became more and more visible and eventually, they became completely visible. I should have looked at Wikipedia instead of Google. If you are looking for the truth, then you should go to Wikipedia and if you want to find your death then you can Google it. I had no idea what Google is for. (While now when I correct grammar, I know that it is the power of the world and the rich elite that murder us ordinary people and they also murder our children. Wikipedia is also a power and the rich elite’s criminal mafia, so not even they allow any of the truth in Wikipedia.) Anyway, I thought I might not get pain because I did not have them from the beginning. But after about 1 year, the pain of hell suddenly came in a second. is also a power and the rich elite’s criminal mafia, so not even they allow any of the truth in Wikipedia?) Anyway, I thought I might not get pain because I did not have them from the beginning. But after about 1 year, the pain of hell suddenly came in a second. I thought I had seen the worst it was just the

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beginning. So usually, I have gone around town with Bus but now it was over with this. Now it was walking that mattered to me and walking is a must, because it is the only way to relieve pain for me. Not only that, as a hobby I used to play guitar. I cannot play well but I had a dream to learn in the end and I practiced for hours, sometimes whole days. Now that I was in pain this dream died completely for me. Since then, I have never taken it in my hands and will never do so as long as I live. Now I was sentenced to walk myself to death because that’s what it means to be damaged by electric current of battery 9 volts. I cannot feel joy anymore. Every day that I live, I live in “Agony”. The pain came and I got an inhuman restlessness as if I had drunk 5 liters of strong coffee. The pain is unbearable, and it never goes away, instead it becomes stronger and more unmanageable. From the first day I have walked from 8 km to 20 km per day every day. Coming home close my eyes for a while sleeping in constant pain for a few hours and then I get so tired at 02:00 at night and walk again at least 8 km in the middle of the night on the promenade. I usually sit down and look at the sea, and in my horror cry because this means a disaster for me and the end of my life. The restlessness can be compared to when you are attacked by a large dog that runs towards you and where there is a gate that stops the dog from changing one for example and so there you lose all strength in the body and then you tremble in your hands and feel weak and have a discomfort that is terrible and constant but, in my case, I am not afraid. By dog ​​attack you get in this state for a few minutes and all people can imagine this but for me, I am in this state around the clock where it never stops hurting and having the terrible discomfort pain anxiety and depression. Not even for a second does it drop and there are problems where people cannot imagine that such a thing is possible. That fantasy that there is talk of burning in hell when you die. They have drawn it into the Earth in real life and have made this fantasy possible and real so that we can burn and go against decay alive. That imagination may have arisen from the electrical damage from the very beginning. The electric device “e-stim” is a one-way ticket to Hell. There is no going back to ordinary human life once you have had that thing in you once. One’s body dies while still alive. It is no coincidence that it is for sale. It’s nothing that can be done for years as they claim in their advertising of death. It is an inauguration laid out as a trap that looks like it has something to do with sex, but “Purpose” is that you should go into this trap, and you only need to test it once and then you are instantly dying. You are a slave to pharmaceutical companies, and you are removed from Humanity. Being damaged by electric current means exactly and is Madness. Even a normal person who has never had mental problems could have fallen into this trap. If the normal person had fallen into this trap, then after two years he is mentally ill. Thoughts are disturbed, not because you get depressed but because nerves are damaged. What is a wound that never heals? it is cancer where the body dies. This is exactly the same thing you lose the body. It falls apart, dies and it only gets worse and never better. If I were to get cancer now, then I would not know I have cancer. These injuries feel worse and have more pain than cancer. It feels like fire, “I’m burning alive” sometimes it shifts to icy cold with pain in both cases, it feels numb as if I had received dental anesthesia + loss of sensation as if it stops being my body. Body loses its function, and it is the worst emotion that drives one to insanity. You feel the body parts that you do not feel like something

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foreign, and you lose your breath because of it, you cannot breathe, and you have the anxiety of death. It feels like I’ve got nerve poison in me. I walk myself to death I think too much because of the restlessness that kills me. Now I cannot do anything I should, suddenly everything is difficult for me now. In the beginning, I managed with the usual painkillers Alvedon and Diclofenac and they helped a little in the beginning. I was ashamed to go to the doctor to seek care because all this is so embarrassing. Not only with this, which I have ridden, I had for years slowly got “groin hernia”. It started on the west side where it got bigger and then the right one also started to get big. But the left one even hurt so it was worse in my eyes. I had to fix this so it would not get worse. I did several different surveys and so that I do not think about what is acceptable and appropriate for me to say now, I will instead describe the exact course of events so that everyone can form their opinion about how you yourself should act and feel is if you were in my situation. So, I went to the hospital regarding inguinal hernia, and he said that it will only get worse and that the best thing for me is that I have surgery with peephole surgery because the scars are small and that I will recover faster. I asked if I would not have surgery, how long would I be able to do that, he said for a maximum of three years. I chose this and the operation was booked. I asked people how they felt when they had surgery and everyone told me not to worry it will go well, you’ll see. One person said he was waving his arms around while he was asleep and that they had to tie him up and that he was bruised by surgical staff. He said it as a real joke. Joke or not it must not happen to me I thought. To beat hospital staff and then have to apologize when I also see injuries that I have caused to them. Just thinking about this makes me start to feel ashamed. My biggest fear through my life always was that I will humble myself and I will be ashamed. And the worst fears and nightmares have come true for me when I think back on my life. Finally, I went to visit a surgeon who will operate on me. He brought with him a younger female student from East Asia; I think. I said the one on the left is worse and he said no the right one is worse. He told her to come and see you here too. So, they looked so closely up. He said here you see the right one is bigger. I was ashamed of the burns down there and I have not even said a word to them about what I have hurt myself with. It was a shame right through. He said we should go from right to left. The one on the left side we will operate with peephole surgery but the one on the right we may have to operate with a scalp incision because it is difficult to manage to fix both with peephole surgery. But we will try to fix both with peephole surgery. I had no objections, I’m happy as long as it is finished and fixed. Days went by and the day came when I was going to have surgery, so I went through preparation and was really scared. There I got a bed next to a window. They gave me a pill for nausea and some Alvedon I think, in addition I got a drop of fluid and it calmed me down a bit. I have been waiting a very long time for my turn to have surgery, but in the end came two younger nurses who are part of this surgery. They rolled me out to the elevator and then it was up to some floor where I will have surgery. They said go to the toilet one last time ok. Then I lay down again on the rolling bed. One of them was behind and pushed, I did not see her, and the other was really kind, she went to the right side of bed took me in the right hand she showed me her support and I really felt at peace and how lovingly I have been taken care of. Then she walked in front of the bed took me in

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the right foot and then in the left foot while she holes in the bed. And then I was pushed into a small corridor. There on the left side or straight ahead there was surgery room and on the right side there were patients who have had surgery and are on courtship and where I was in the middle. At that place, they prepare needles and such before surgery. They told me, in there will be the three people who operate on you while we prepare everything here in this place. She said you’re lucky this surgeon is one of the best there is, and he comes here from another city. In addition, they said that an anesthesia nurse has come from Trollhättan especially for my operation which is done in the city where I live in Uddevalla. I said I was ashamed. Everything will go well, you will see, she told me. Then came a third nurse. They said this is our colleague she helps us with something I do not remember what my attention was on how she looks, and she was very similar to Mathilde Mackowski from http://www.Sinful.se. I thought it was her or it’s her sister, at least she saw as a copy of her. She came and went came and went away. I had 100% confidence in them. From the first day when I came to Sweden until this day where I had surgery, I have had blind trust and love for this country and the Swedish people. I thought ok I put my life in your hands, and I believe in you. All this is just coincidence. The worst thing for me was that they will see the damage and it will be shameful for me. I was hoping that there would be only three people in there as she said and that it would be dark in the room with lights that only shine on the area that will be operated on, just like in the movies. When they drove me in there, there were very many of them and it was very illuminated with bright light. On the right side was an empty bed, in front of me were several of the hospital surgeon employees, slightly different multicultural nationalities. On the left side, there was a nurse who would give me anesthesia, so she told me, I’m an anesthesia nurse. You should be anesthetized, and it will hurt a little. You will be able to breathe into this mask and then you will fall asleep. We will put you to sleep when and we will wait for half an hour before we start operating on you. They said the doctor will come when you are prepared for surgery. Are you ready? I said yes, it’s me. I thought this is not a difficult operation, but I can actually die here. I got it injected and it stung a little then I got that worm, and there was a stop in the device when I was going to inhale, once stop then I breathe in it came stop two and then came stop three. There was another nurse on the right side of the device who said, this device is malfunctioning and after that I lost consciousness. Then with a feeling that I have slept for a long time I woke up and got up a little quickly and then I felt very big pain in the chest, a minor pain where I have had surgery then I felt pain in the navel height on the left edge of the stomach there I’ve never had pain. I felt like I had been cut there too. What is there to operate on, I wondered? It is a peephole operation from the navel and down, but fortunately everything has been done with peephole surgery without full cuts with scalps. There on the left edge of the recovery room was a woman and two men. The two came to me and said you woke up from a sudden twitch, we’ll drive you down there. They drove me to a smaller room where they told me to get something to eat and drink. Well, when I was down there in place so when I was about to get out of bed and get up, I got pain in my left leg, so I almost fell to the floor. I had terrible pain in my left leg at the ankle. I said what the hell, what is this for? They said you might have beaten yourself up weeks before. Strange I

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said, I do not remember this. When I started walking then it got a little better and I did not think about it. I drank two large cups of mixed juice, I ate sandwiches and a pie then I had pains and then they moved me close to them, so they knew how I was feeling. I had a disturbing clock on the left side of my bed on the road that was ticking loudly. I got a lot of painkillers and then in the morning one of them told me that in other shifts they should give me painkillers that I can take home. There was a change of hospital staff and in the morning two nurses sat down at a table near me and talked in a quiet voice to each other and I picked up what they said. They mentioned my name “This operation is very good for him”. To me, it looked like I was meant to hear them. They were maybe a few meters away so I could hear when they said that. After that, the nurse came with medication and among them I had received four half red capsules. They must have been opioids. After a while, the doctor came. I expected him to tell me that I had cardiac arrest or heart fibrillation after I had chest pain. So, he said that everything went well, the operation went well and that I should contact them if it gets worse and worse with pain. I will take the four capsules in case the pain becomes unbearable when it does its worst. I did not mention anything to him and keep quiet. I went home and those opioids if it was now opioids, I did not even want to take so I threw them in the trash instead. As long as I had the other tablets, I got from them everything was fine, I felt almost normal. But when those tablets disappeared, hell started right away. After a few weeks I walked 10 to 20 km. every day. I slept very little, but I felt that now it is even worse than before the operation. I walked and could not walk on my left leg. I got a giant swelling on my left ankle. After two months these electrical damages have exploded, they now became 100 times worse. And not only that, so now I felt the burning sensation (pain) even on the left leg thigh and it climbs upwards around the whole leg. Now it is definitely much worse with injuries spreading in all directions and it hurts a lot. And when I tell the doctor that I am losing sensation where it climbs up and where it has come up to the hip on my left leg where I am losing sensation more and more. It sticks like knives inside my legs now, but he just looks at me, without being able to give me an answer and explanation. They say that nerve damage usually spreads downwards in the legs, from the damage downwards not when they go upwards. Then I decided to report all this to the police and to seek care for the electrical stimulation damage that that device has inflicted on me, so I first went to the police. It was a policewoman I got to talk to. I told her that I was dying from the pain that nerves had been damaged, that I had partially lost feeling, that I was going for long walks and that it was only getting worse that I was dying. She asked me where I bought this, and I showed her on my mobile http://www.Sinful.se . She looked at this, in addition I have said about the damage to the ankle top of the foot and that this electrical damage has exploded. I also mentioned the incident at the psychiatric clinic where I spent the night where it all really started. She said you will receive an answer in five days in envelopes that we will send to you by post. OK after this I went to the doctor, so I got Gabapentin where after a while I came up in a dose up to 1200 mg. x 3 per day. After and on the fifth day, I received two envelopes where in one of them it said that police investigation has been closed, there is no evidence and in the other almost nothing they are doing. The swelling on the legs is not even recorded anywhere. I thought ok if there is no evidence then

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I should go and get it. I got an appointment with a specialist in a hospital. I sat with him in a small room where I explained how I was injured and said that I even have visible burns. It is not overly visible, but it is still visible. Next to it was a slightly larger room, he said undress and lie down on the bed. I told him, excuse me, can you draw the curtains? There was a space of the same building. You could see everything from there from the other windows. I felt a little stupid in my head if I did not say anything. He said I did not see this I apologize. Now let’s see, hmm what I see everything looks completely normal. There are no strange things, he said. I could not do anything more. If he thinks so then I have nothing more to do there, so I left. It is in this way that I have been treated from the first day when I came to Sweden, as if I am not even a human being. “Those who talk to me before I start taking Gabapentin have told me.” The medicine Gabapentin will make you say everything open”. I thought, never in my life how could a medicine make me say everything openly? Time passed I took it Gabapentin three times a day. I have to say that it was disturbing to think all the time when it’s time to take them again. That pain is distorted without and with that medicine it is 100 times more distorted, and it only got worse. About five months after taking Gabapentin, I began to feel that the drug was immediately devastating to my psyche and personality. My cognitive ability deteriorates, my memories are erased, my self disappears from my body. I forget things I had planned to do. Forget wallet mobile. I’m just afraid I’ll forget to pay bills. This is how it has been for me since I started taking Gabapentin and it only gets worse. The memories start to blur I start to get insecure. My judgment is damaged and greatly affected. For over a year, I have not rested a single day. I have walked every day I have to. My legs are breaking. Out of exhaustion, I get twitches in my arms and body. So, I’ve had accidents. I have cut myself, I have accidentally hit myself, so I have full cuts and blows (scars). Sometimes in the morning I lie on the floor and cry. The brain cannot handle such impulses, it is not compatible with those damages. It hurts in a distorted way, it evokes the anxiety of death, does not tickle properly but in this direction, this evokes anxiety, icy feeling evokes anxiety. I feel distorted pain in muscles that do not release, also this causes anxiety and much more than that. The worst thing is that the part of the body that you do not feel is the worst and it causes a dozen different symptoms that torture me to death. The only way out of this hell is to end my life so that the pain disappears. It has nothing to do with depression this is pure raw suffering. You can also hear Cancer patients say that they want to end their lives. Not only this, but I was also dressed as usual and walked on the way to work. And I froze a little because it was cold, and the freezing damage made me so that the damage worsened. Now I wear warm clothes when I’m out. It feels like Gabapentin cuts contact between neurons, a little there a little there and I slowly disappear. I read about people who have had ECT where they say they have had epilepsy from ECT where it is confirmed by doctors in general care. I have never had epilepsy and now I take such medication that is intended for epilepsy and neuropathic pain. It reduces pain 30%, not even that and the other 70% it hits right into the brain. It does not affect the body where I am not injured but only where I am injured it gets even worse although it lowers a little pain. I do not know if nerves die due to the medication or due to electrical damage. I have been through wars and as a child I have only been beaten. But all of this falls into oblivion when

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compared to these injuries and the effects of those medications. They may be specially designed so that you are eradicated so that you stop complaining. I could not live with that medicine then I tried different medicines for neuropathic pain and only felt bad then I got Cymbalta where they told me that it starts to help with pain after two weeks. It did not help me under any circumstances with anything. I love music but when I listened to them, I told myself why I listen to it. I saw exactly how it deprives me of even the most lovable thing, listening to music. Music has made my everyday life happier, a little more beautiful in all these years and everything disappeared in two weeks with Cymbalta. I took it in the morning and was going to go to training and just at grocery stores I got blood pressure drop from it. I was not knowing how I got to this place, where I am going and why I am there. It was a hair that kept me conscious, so I still knew everything. So, I quickly went into the grocery store and bought a chocolate candy and then I recovered. Had I been on a busy street and if it went all the way then maybe I would have unknowingly walked in front of a car and I would have been run over by a car. I felt I was poisoning myself with that medicine, so I immediately decided that day to stop taking it. As soon as I quit the next day, I immediately started to feel good again. The next medicine is the last Lyrica I’m taking now. Even there it is the same as Gabapentin. I should take 250 mg twice. per day. Even if I take them in the morning as well, I feel the same way as with Gabapentin. It’s a little gentler but it’s the same hell. It’s even drug classified, and I who do not even want to take drugs now they have forced this drug in me. They talk to me; in this psychic cognitive set of words, they influence and reach me. It is the state that has never ever questioned and that has allowed the disgusting Mental Health Care’s final help ECT. When they have allowed over 700 volts to be given to humans, even children, we cannot question anything. If children can get this, so can we adults, according to the state. If you do not fall into the ECT trap, they have put it in all segments such as sex, muscle pain relief, training of muscles, scanning of damaged nerves with more electric current which they claim is at low strength and is harmless according to those at the pain clinic. In that way, they have given me injuries that lead me right into death and they give it to all of us. But they also have pain relief to the death trap where they also affect me physically where they have put their fingers right into my brain with a drug-classified medicine. When I take them in the evening and morning, I feel terrible and if I have taken in the morning, I cannot write a word. I have everything where I try, and it does not work. Not even a single word. I cannot think clearly simply. They provoke a terrible anger and anxiety. The crime (estimate) is for people to lose their bodies and where to suffer around the clock. That pain tortures one to insanity and then you can make a mistake, for example, say something ugly, whatever. You have no peace; you do not live under human conditions. The only pain relief Gabapentin and Lyrica is not for it to help with pain and anxiety because it does not help, but instead it intensifies pain and anxiety. The injuries make one completely crazy and when one takes the medications then it throws one even further and reinforces the image of one as crazy. You suffer even more. Therefore, I refrain from taking them tomorrow so that I am not drugged around the clock. When you take them during the day as well, you feel psychotic and lobotomized, it’s like you’re not in that place. It continues to hurt, and I feel terribly mentally ill. They lobotomize a human so that you lose

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your cognitive ability and only become dumber with time. What the drug Lyrica develops can best be described as the series called (twilight zone) This condition that these injuries and the drugs evoke is where one is inside this terrible alternative reality. When you take this medicine so every night when you have taken it, you die and all the plans you had the day before having also died. When I take Lyrica at night, I have tried to write and have written. Life is unbearable with Lyrica, but now I am considering living with pain where I only take Seroquel to be able to fall asleep at night. And now that it has cleared up in my brain without Lyrica, so when I have read what I have written under the influence of the drug-classified medicine, I have deleted every single word. When I take them, I do not know what is important and what is not, I go on emotions and not on logic. Everything sounds completely stupid afterwards. There you can see what a terrible impact it has on me. And without Lyrica just with this pain, I have said things I would never have done before I was injured two years ago. There you can see what a devastating effect these injuries have on my mental state. With medication I am psychotic and without them, these pains torture me, where I am slowly teased to death and come up to the same level as with the Lyrica medication but in a different way. I keep some sense so I can still think fairly normally, but at the same time I lose it anyway. The day I tested (estimate) was the day I dug my grave. When the pain came, I lay down in my coffin. Every month that I now live with these medications and those injuries is a nail in my coffin. How many nails are needed until when I have died, gone crazy or taken my life, I do not know. When I see that I can no longer live with pain, suffering and because of the crime I have been exposed to, I consider going to Dignitas in Switzerland, where I can commit suicide because of the Swedish state. It still sounds and looks humane in my eyes. My suffering will end. I do not want to take my own life, I want to live, but I have been murdered, this is execution. Millions of people across the planet have fallen into this trap. When I try to search for people who have been injured by this, so that I can see how they feel, then I cannot find any of those who are injured. Google Censors millions of injured people to death. We can never find each other because everyone is blocked by states through google. I feel like a corpse, I die. You are silenced by the state very seriously. Taking “Zyprexa and Seroquel” is not the end of the world. But to take (Gabapentin or Lyrica) for electrical damage it is the end of the world. It means the end of one’s life and existence. That is what exists, nothing else exists, doctors have told me. Taking regular over-the-counter pain medications does not help with nerve damage of this kind. I have to take them every hour and they do not even help so it is not possible. In addition to this, I cannot even breathe. Not because I have lung problems but because of anxiety I breathe heavily at night and during the day due to pain. It does not help to cry. This is the end for me. One can does not exist with such injuries. These are not even injuries, injuries are when you break a leg, get cut or shot or when you hit yourself. the body can heal all this but not this not (estim) damage. This is massacre mutilation. If the “Estim” injury had been only on the legs, then in time I would consider amputating it so bad is this. Now it is not possible to amputate half the body. I have been thinking about going to the hospital and wanting to cut nerves on my back a little over, so maybe it’s better to be in a wheelchair than with this pain that strikes and directly affects the brain. They have turned me into a disabled I get the same qualities as

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those who have had their brains burned with ECT. All the hell I feel makes me breathe anger and hatred. I get angry because of what they have done to me. It’s been two years since I tested it. For a little over a year, I have lived with pain. My nerves have died a second time and they continue to die. Now there is even more of my body that I lack feeling in, and it gets worse every day, so I do not know where this end. It is followed by even greater pain. It is ongoing body collapse where nerves, cells, vessels internal organs are damaged, where the body loses function and simply goes to death, while I live. I fight for life every day. When I fall asleep, I continue to dream about injuries after which I feel pain in my dream. I just repeat repeatedly “what have they done to me”. I have no depression it has disappeared 15 years ago when I admitted to the police that. I have again received Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder precisely from this “e-stim 9-volt” injuries that I have received in 15 minutes. I see I’m going to die. The only way to fall asleep for me is that I take Seroquel to be able to sleep and Lyrica which lowers pain or anxiety a little. It does not really reduce pain. It continues to hurt in the injured part of the body. It murdered my personality so that I almost die overnight in my psyche and pain I continue to feel when I sleep so that I do not forget for a second that I am injured and do not stop thinking about this not even when I sleep. This is psychological torture that lasts as long as I live and the more the body dies the more the torture pain grows in strength. I get beaten up again and again every day. This is a battle of life and death that I cannot win. There is no one who can. The Guantanamo prison cannot be compared to this Hell. If those people are released, then they can sleep and dream in peace, but I can never do it again until the last day I live. Otherwise without them I cannot sleep at all. And these medicines Seroquel, Lyrica, Cymbalta you get from the Mental Health Service. They hurt people with ECT, and it happens to be just them and no one else who has pain relief and help with sleep and who does not even help. By Seroquel I gain weight. From it, I have a high risk of getting diabetes. And once in the beginning when I gained weight from those medications, I had a disturbed metabolism, so I had to take medication for this. I was on the verge of getting diabetes from Zyprexa and Seroquel due to being overweight. When I only take Lyrica, I miss breakfast and lunch after which I lose my appetite completely. Then I only eat in the evening. But down I take Seroquel with Lyrica then it has a stronger effect so in the end I eat too much and gain weight anyway. When you think of Seroquel, I can get diabetes and when I get it, I will also have to take medication for diabetes. All those medications are sure to damage my kidneys and liver. When kidneys are damaged, I will have to take medication for impaired kidney function. Even heart beats, for sure. How to get (Estim-damage) means death for me in the end. Not to mention how bad I feel about not feeling my body. And when I have taken Lyrica so when I wake up, I feel like I have been frozen or dead for many years and then the next day have been thawed and revived where I feel completely emotionally dead, confused, lost, insecure and anxious with terrible anxiety. Then I have to struggle during the day to walk to throw this poison out of my body to find meaning and reason to continue living. And it is repeated every day over and over again. I constantly feel like I want to vomit on them especially in the morning and it’s the same thing if I do not take them, out of pain I feel like I want to vomit. It feels like I had drunk alcohol and I get dizzy from it. I can ‘t think really clearly. Now it has gotten worse with injuries, so it

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sticks like needles and there are new symptoms all the time. I’m starting to panic from all this. I feel exactly that Lyrica is damaging my brain I just disappear. I cannot live this year until 2019. I’m not even sure if I live this month. When I think back, they have done this to me. But when I think of my child, he was born well in advance when he was supposed to be born. Everything was ok with him. I understand that children can cry for a long time, but my son suddenly fell loud crying and cramps similar to crying conditions where he sways around. It was so bad that I thought something was wrong with him. Then he feels good again as if nothing has happened. Growing up, he got angry attacks where it guarantees from nowhere suddenly. Throughout his upbringing, he has had concentration difficulties. Now I think it may be that those who speak to me have done the same to my own child. They could just as easily scream in his ears, let him hear disturbing noises. He could not tell me because he was too young and could not talk. Due to concentration difficulties, he has had difficulty in school. This police investigation has taken all the energy I had in me, so I could not devote myself to running and helping him with school. Now at the end I see that my son has no prospects for life, and I am dying. They have removed me, and they have removed him too, without him even being aware of it. It has not gone well for him. He is a very nice guy with a good heart like the majority of immigrant children. It is so that they have built an image of us as a dysfunctional family, where they can show the rest of the world a Swedish fabricated or truth of me and my family. He likes music just like me. He wants designer clothes and I do not have this opportunity to give to him. I give to a certain extent as much as I can then we have to have for food and to pay bills. Without successful schooling and education, he cannot get a job. If he does not get a job then he can fall into the trap like hundreds of thousands of other young people, especially immigrant young people. And there you see if my son starts to deal with drugs, the Police will imprison him as the negative figure in society, a problem child and then he is removed from Society and in my case in me they have forced a drug-classified medicine (drug) which alleviates pain for crimes that the same State has legislated, allowed and where they pretend that it does not even exist. It’s not even called crime. That Novichok who gets nerves to die is wrong, but Estim is OK. Maybe it’s because Novichok can be spread where those in power and the rich elite and all their families can happen to it and be injured in the same way as me and something like that must not happen. But this cannot be spread uncontrollably, in this only those who are chosen and who are to be thinned out go. They have removed me in this way. They have removed a family breadwinner, what’s worse I’m single. I had a dream to find a woman where we would love each other to live and be happy in all our days, as long as we live. Even that dream has died for me. After what has happened to me, I do not even think about women anymore. A relationship is out of the question for me. If I had been in a relationship, then it would end in divorce now. No woman wants me now, she would just see a man obeying and dying. Anyway, in the end I decided to write the whole year but first I want to see in my patient record what they have written about me, so I ordered my patient record from the health service I also ordered my reports from the police and after a while it came home to me. The report to the police states “They have sold a product that turned out not to be what they claim, and it is fraud. I threw those records, so I do not remember exactly but this was what

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was written there. Nothing about injuries that I am dying, pains, nerve death. And journals from mental health care took me a very long time to read through. It must be a Poet writer who has written templates for each mental illness where they just change the name of the patient. Wherever you go, to any government institution. All of them say that they have a duty of confidentiality and that no one will know about what we individuals say to them. So, to psychiatric care, I have said things that are criminal and the person who has printed out my patient records and sent to me so he or she could read everything. Personal integrity does not apply to the state. They come into our lives just as if we were animals or a store where our private memories are different products on the counter. They root through our memories; they open take for granted and then they leave a chaos behind and go out. The door is open and unlocked for them. We ordinary people do not share that information with each other and that is why they can build such death traps for us. It struck me; I have admitted everything 15 years ago. What if the police will deny that I have confessed to a crime? What if they say I’ve never been to them and that after 15 years of hell, they’d sentencing me to jail again. Therefore, I have gone to the Police and asked if I can get a record from that police report 15 years ago. I said I want to talk to someone. He said it’s not possible, tell me. There were a lot of people inside the reception, and I told him, I have confessed to the crime, I want this journal. He said the journals that are so old are in Gothenburg. I’ll contact you somehow. I said do you want my mobile number; he wrote it and he never contacted me. Here you see how I am treated. We live our lives in trust in Society, the power that everything they serve us in the media is the truth that we must follow. If we follow it and if we do not deviate from state norms, then we will not get hurt, everything is OK we are safe. That is why the state takes care of us. They warn us of dangers. The state warns of dangerous products such as alcohol, drugs, carcinogens in clothing, in food products, cigarettes and so on. You accept it as a danger, so you take care of it. You cannot avoid thinking about it when you hear in the media talk about this over and over again, it is dangerous. But the problem is that because you believe in the state, you believe that it is only what is dangerous and nothing else. All of this they care about because their families and they themselves consume this, so they warn again and again to the productive normal citizens who are important to society. Intelligent children who are to become medical researchers and so on are not a rule that they are born into rich families. They do not touch it; they are born a little everywhere even in poor families. There are human rights for such people. But those who do not have common sense, those who fall into such state death traps, they should be purged. That they could even think of the idea of ​​considering trying something so dangerous. Then it is just as well that they castrate themselves with their own hands. We must remove them from society and the living world, because they deserve nothing better than such an end to their lives. If you are injured with an estimation device, then it is difficult for you to manage your everyday life after you die under inhuman conditions. You can lose your job and then the state has a vacancy for someone they consider to be a worthy, healthy, and obedient citizen. They have manipulated me into listening to them and their good advice. Now I have become without my family because of them. They want me to have no one I can lean on, to be able to get support from. Now I am

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completely alone. Not only am I dying, but I might also as well end up on the streets as homeless. It is the normal people who have had a secure life throughout their lives, who have the right to live according to human rights in peace in Sweden. Such people leave the Swedish power in peace. In this way, they experience their lives in complete harmony where they believe in Western democracy, freedom, humanism, human rights, equality between men and women, that everyone has equal value and all the image that is shown and repeated in the media around the clock, over and over again. The state glorifies itself through media such as the just, authoritarian, holy and good, so that they can disarm our intellect with propaganda full of different values ​​and lies that will control our behavior. That is why there is such a big difference between those who live their lives in freedom and those who are investigated and tortured by the power through the police. So, when we say all this openly, the majority of citizens do not believe a word of us. We are sick and mad; the truth has nothing to do with us. All this is important for all the rich, those in power, the entire state system who are politicians, the police, psychiatric care, public care, media, companies and so on. Then secondarily to us ordinary people. We also consume the same food products, clothes, and other things, so as long as we share the same needs with them. All that is part of this that the state wants us to see. There is talk in the media about dangers to our health time and time again, in this way we get a picture where only this is dangerous, and they talk about safety. The word “security” is the word I have heard too often along with human rights and equality. You get the feeling that you are safe. They talk about human rights, about all equal values, so I imagined that I also had human rights to live and that I too am worthy as a human being. In the beginning, 15 years ago, they supported my idea of ​​human rights struggle for democracy, when I slowed down, was not interested then they have pushed me in this direction. Now that I have fallen into the trap, they no longer support me, instead I feel that they want to hurt me more. They give me a slap in the face where I, now dying, have realized that it was they who have constantly continuously taken my life slowly. Their goal was never to sentence me to prison for crime, instead the intention was always that I had to die. All they have done was just to get my trust in them so that I will follow their good advice, where they mislead me so that I stay in solitude where I should not have contact with people in isolation. This led me to lose the human qualities of my personality, which in turn led me to injure myself in accidents and the death traps of state crime, time and time again. That, in turn, is the vicious circle that is going to drive me crazy. But their main intention is that I should die either due to injuries, medication, or suicide. No matter what and for what reason it may be now, it must not happen that I am still alive. I must not become alive and normal when it’s time for the court trial that they said I cannot escape even if I want to. Prison exists to punish, mentally harm people who commit crimes. But if people happen to lack control over their mood and behavior then it is a weakness that the state uses as a weapon against people who are detained and sentenced to prison. Through imprisonment in prison, they harm their psyche which in turn causes the inmates to commit wrongdoing. Then they start an evil spire, where the police make them make serious mistakes so that the state can punish them more. If they manage to get the inmates to start hurting themselves due to psychological stress then it will be like a lottery win, for the

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Swedish state. People should be harmed to such an extent that they can never function normally again in society. It goes this way down the state has reason to imprison people. But when they do not have a proper reason to lock one for many years and they still want to eradicate one from society therefore the state has legalized genocide Estim Electric annihilation, which annihilates one’s body, consciousness, and personal identity as a human individual. In this way, government annihilates people like me through state systems, by tricking us into death. They do not need prison to do that, it goes as well at home as they have done to me. Thanks to a life of 15 years of loneliness, I have suffered more than if I had been locked up in prison. I, who have listened to them, they have hurt more than what they have hurt criminals who have ended up in prison. The state power is the government at the top which has its arms Police and Psychiatric care, public care, media that censors, school systems that do not teach children and young people about state death traps, and what I mean is that government kills its people through state systems. all of them together are the murderers of the entire population of every country on this planet. In this way, it is possible for them to exercise that power in the way they want, and through the Police and psychiatric care, they reach us all citizens.  They reach us through the police if we commit criminal violence. It’s the easy part, where they’ve got evidence against one and that’s all right. Do not commit a crime? Imagine how you would feel if you were robbed of your savings when you were 70 years old, for example. Do not be a criminal. Become a hero instead, was a Robin Hood? If we do not commit criminal violent crime, then they make us sick in the same way as they have done to me through Psychiatric care and then they take in hard gloves where they use all segments of society against one. They decide how the story about me should end. I cannot and no one can fight them. The state is too powerful for all of us. That it’s gone to hell with me is just because I’m a stranger. I’m not Swedish. I’m just Vahid, a refugee from Bosnia. They have drug companies that manufacture the antipsychotic drugs, and they have companies that manufacture death ECT for Psychiatric Care and the other products that lead people into mental hospitals and suicide which are Estim devices of various kinds. There are hundreds of different and every single one leads to death in the end, after which one does not live. This is not a life I live now so massacred with these mutilation injuries. One of the most important tools that the state uses is media, TV, radio, newspapers, internet censors like Google, which ensures what the population gets to see and what it should never talk about. What is not talked about, does not exist either. I have heard the media talk about problems in Kista, about problems in Rinkeby but never a single word about mass murder of the population with state lies about the dangerous products and about everything I have said about and what I have suffered. The state has approved and allowed companies open hands where they manufacture deadly products under false claims without warning that people who buy those products will be injured to death, completely forever. When they murder, then it’s not a crime. When they market and sell the stuff, they hide the vital information that makes the difference between life and death. To exclude telling the truth, literally means to lie, when they lie it is not a crime. The state has the Swedish Electrical Safety Agency which controls dangerous electrical appliances for consumers as far as I understand, but all the hundreds of different Estim appliances are

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totally invisible to them and there is something wrong there. The media never talk about all the deadly products Estim of various kinds so that the information important to life is withheld from the population even there. If you try to search the internet, you will find no warning, then it is not classified as dangerous. If you search for people who have been injured with those products, you will not find a single person. We can be several in one city and can never access each other so we can ask each other, how are you. I really want to ask what happens next to someone who is injured. I see that it only gets worse never better. Will I die, what will happen to me. I could have lived for another 30 years but now I do not know if I will live out this month and Sweden has given it to me in a legal way. We die in parallel with each other in silence and loneliness. Someone is responsible for the fact that it is possible that a human being can be harmed to such an extent, where life is extinguished forever and that it is not flagged as a general danger to humanity is completely inconceivable to me. There are millions, perhaps many millions, who have fallen into the trap, searching for potential danger and no one finds the warning. It is so inhuman and evil to do so to people just to get them to fall into the death trap so that their lives end. All of them are power and all of them are state. They exist in symbiosis with each other. This is where all the money and riches change hands and where the power is. They like when billions of people look at them in their luxury lives and their fine costumes when they rule over life and death, then they feel a bit like gods. Politicians talk about human rights humanism, humanity security that one hears everywhere about, while keeping quiet about what is the worst of the worst on the whole planet that a human or living organism can be exposed to, what is equivalent to death a camouflaged death trap. We see what they want citizens to see, there is only talk of the positive, and that is the advertising we all see in the media. Beneath the surface things are going in the opposite direction. Society builds and shows an image where law and order, ethics and moral behavior are promoted in the media and then we listen to this where it is constantly repeated. We see it on TV we listen to this on the radio all day and what is repeated many times is in the end the truth that does not even mean to be true. When we the population take on state propaganda and accept it as our morality Compass then the power has us as its blind faithful subjects. The one you believe in the most is the one who can hurt one most of all. I believed in the Swedish state and here I have reached the end of death. I’m fighting against clock and time. The more time passes, the more I fall apart physically and mentally due to the crime I have been exposed to. I find it increasingly difficult to coordinate words and tell what I want to say. I listened to the radio where it is about a woman who has been discharged from a closed psychiatric clinic “who is state” and where she has been sent home without being given time for open psychiatric care. They have simply forgotten her, they say. She has committed suicide and psychiatric care has been criticized in the media “as state” because they have sent her home where they should have done more so that her life could be saved. And now they intend to take major measures so that it is not repeated more in the future. And this is repeated and repeated throughout the day and the next day on the radio. What actions do they intend to take? Is it that they intend to bring the police “who are state” home to people to be able to forcibly redeem them into mental hospitals? I get nervous to hear as soon as people have

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started taking medication because they feel bad mentally and when they have taken their own lives, they are immediately branded as unpredictable. They are not according to their own minds. It is mental illness that has led them to commit suicide for no reason, according to the image that the state builds of the mentally ill through the state system. Then at the end of the day at 3.20 pm, they let a young woman talk who says that she intends to report something criminal, which has happened to her where she has had a bad experience at a closed psychiatric clinic. I was working and it was almost 15.30 and then I had to stop working and go home so I did not hear what it was about. The woman who committed suicide, I have heard about it all day and all the next day, and it is tragic for her.  I have only heard about the young woman once at the end of the day where most people stop working and no one listens to the radio anymore. There you see when psychiatric care is criticized then no one should hear. Another example is about a mother who has had a son diagnosed with ADHD. Thanks to medication for ADHD later, he has become a drug addict, and this led to mental illness. She said he has visited a psychologist 400 times in his short life, he committed suicide. She also criticizes psychiatric care for not doing enough to save his life. What she is saying is that she wants psychiatric care to have much greater powers so that they can recognize and intervene in the mentally ill who live in freedom, so that they can be forced into mental hospitals. This is even worse. She should have thought before giving the medicine to her child. She can even be a fictional character where power and psychiatric care take on harder gloves to curtail and exercise their power so that people keep their mouths shut. 400 times in my ears sounds like a bit untrue and unreal even though you never know. They come from time to time, sometimes they talk about greatness madness. When they talk about a person who has greatness madness where he thinks he is some story epic figure, then the whole population feels a discomfort, shame, No one wants to be branded this way or have anything to do with such people. Psychiatric care is the one that knows best and knows everything as it comes from the state. But that we see power as something honest, something noble where we look up to them, where we sympathize with them, they idolize as something great. Is not that greatness madness. Against such greatness madness the power does not mind, that greatness madness is welcome. The person who is sick, his madness for greatness is not dangerous, he is just ashamed. But this one that we all citizens pray in us, which is our state worship of power, this madness of greatness that we have, is life-threatening. We believe in them and they, in their words, put us in a position where we have confidence in them while they have set death traps for us. When we have entered it then we realize that they are lying, they are executing us. In some parts of the planet, power executes people openly as an example to all so that they keep their mouths shut and keep quiet where they should not question power, and here it is also committed in an invisible way, murder with state silence. It is so cleverly done that when you realize the extent of this, you are completely shocked, and you only realize it when you have had a bad experience. It’s really advanced done here and it’s going on. There is constant advertising for psychiatric care. 15 years ago, I was told, they say that the mentally ill have paranoid thoughts where the state builds a conspiracy against them. That the mentally ill can build in their head, by imagining events from their imagination, which do not correspond to reality,

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where the police are involved and that they become most ill when they convince themselves that all this is true. I have heard such things and did not know that it will be prepared for myself in 15 years. This is how it is, the executioner who executed people on the guillotine has had a mask on his head so that they are not recognized by the population. It is the state that has executed people and they have not stopped doing so. The state needs some way to be able to liquidate certain individuals for some reason. Since electricity has been invented, by seeing how pigs are stunned when they are slaughtered, they have come up with the idea of ​​building horror tools ECT. It is murder where they cut off body parts and what was best for states at all times was that one continues to live while the body dies. Outside the body, you look completely unharmed and the cuts inside the body are difficult to prove. Therefore, it is not the fault of the state that people have not died immediately at once. They live after all. It can be compared to when you get a leg amputated. It is almost better to be without legs than with electrical damage to that leg because with those injuries you have contracted mental illness of the worst kind, on the purchase. With ECT they could not reach all people therefore they have put it into Sex segments, pain relief, muscle training, deep electro stimulation massage of the body, remote controlled pain relief electrical stimulating device where it must be picked out after a few weeks due to the fact that it does not help anymore. The patient has had epilepsy from it and when it is out of the body so in addition to the original natural pain, the patient has also received electrical damage, mental illness and has also received epilepsy on the purchase which the doctor denies that there is a reason that has caused epilepsy. At the pain clinic, they use a similar device to deep scan to what extent nerves are damaged, I have read about. They also say it is harmless. They say you can get numbness that is transient and that is a complete lie. I got nerve numbness from the Estim 9-volt device from Sinful and nerve numbness is not transient in me. Instead, I will eventually die because of it. It is a permanent numbness rather nerve death. Here we have it again when they lie, it’s not a crime. People who have suffered nerve damage from illness go to those with already damaged nerves. They check with electric current how much nerves are damaged. It is not to cure just let them know how much nerves are damaged. And just with this, they damage already damaged nerves so that patient is injured even more, although now they have received electrical damage as well. Is the patient description not enough? And then they get new injuries just like I have. Then there are such devices for pain relief, where they put such flat electrodes on the skin. They do not relieve pain but destroy nerves and then they get a pain from hell that is exactly the same as mine and then they are dependent on medications from psychiatric care where they have to start with the medication I take. Not only that, so now they are mentally ill for electrical injuries, mental illness is automatic. Then there are such devices where people put it on the stomach, and it should represent training of abdominal muscles. There you lose feeling at best it does not hurt, and it is because there is adipose tissue there, but loss of feeling is guaranteed, and it will irritate one to insanity for the rest of life. Not to mention ECT 450, sometimes they say 700 volts. You get dead tissue in the brain. It is not that they erase memories it is so that memories do not exist because that part of the brain no longer exists, it is dead. list has become long. All of this is the greatest criminal scam in the history of Mankind in peacetime.

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It is equivalent and is a crime against humanity that power commits. The companies that manufacture these devices, the ones that sell this stuff and the politicians who have legislated and kept their mouths shut where they keep quiet about this. They harvest people to drug companies, who only poison people with the junk medications for mental illness that destroy more than they help. They never cure anything. Not only that, when a human being has received these -Estim injuries, then he is equal to being removed from this humanity and society forever all the way to his death. They have become rich in something that takes the lives of people. It should not even be possible to make money from this scam. I do not mind people who have become rich in their talents, and people who are rich, it’s not about that, I’m happy for their sake, but I hate those murderers who swim in their fucking psychopathic madness of greatness where they know that thanks to them, someone somewhere on the planet has died and someone is dying. Those who endanger our lives and the lives of our children and also that they harm us and murder us, it is a crime in my eyes. If you trick me into losing my money? I can live with that, but if you deceive me so that I lose my life then, I cannot accept and reconcile myself with it. It gives them pleasure. It means Psychopathy and is a mental illness. Under the wings of hospital care where they use meaning where they have put on the white hospital uniforms where they look like they are helping people, they are hurting people to death, for the state. Now the executioner does not have to wear a mask, now he is the “Doctor” it is well camouflaged. They help people who are mentally ill. This is the image that people get to see. As soon as you have gone to a psychologist but have been diagnosed immediately and medicines have been prescribed for various mental symptoms in order for pharmaceutical companies to make money and you are never cured, you will be destroyed instead. Parliament, there is no left or right because, on the surface, they stand for the political program, and they are fighting for the security and well-being of us citizens who have voted for them. While beneath the surface, they have built a deadly back door, a shortcut that they are all different electrical appliances. Through that shortcut, they can circumvent that security and they can commit state abuse of any citizen. Thanks to that, they can murder us and our children legally without a court. They justify it in such a way that they pretend to be stupid in their heads as if those devices are completely invisible to their eyes. They pretend to be deaf in their ears when people talk about their ongoing death, due to the 9-volt Estim device. They pretend to be deaf, where none of those in the state system utter a single word about a certain guaranteed death if one has come in contact with it. The left exists for people who Sweden considers worthy of living in peace. The people they want to kill, they kill together with the center and the right political edge. All that genocide they commit together. They have given open hands to companies that build death traps that are intended for sinners of various kinds who are to be fought in one way or another. The entire population goes to a minefield, and everyone can become potential targets. People do not usually care when they hear that someone has been injured. Only it has not happened to them, and everything is OK. Some people laugh when they hear this but are not aware that their own children can fall into such a death trap in 20 years. If you feel unfairly treated by society believe me, you are not imagining. Reality is not what we think it is. The police and psychiatric care are devastating, and they strike together. They’re a killer

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couple. There is no reason not to believe that they do it in coordination with each other. It is important to get public opinion crowds to see the state constantly as the good one that protects its citizens from criminals where they are to be fought while the police are nice and honest who fight criminals. They always keep quiet, they do not make a fuss of themselves and if they do, then citizens are slowly losing confidence in state politicians and the judiciary. The more people believe in them, the easier it is to steer the population in the direction that power wants. They just do their job. Is it no wonder that drunk people never die at home? They vomit everywhere but do not die. When they are in custody then it suddenly happens that they have died due to some unknown and strange reason. And then they themselves conduct an internal investigation, where they come to the conclusion that it was due to natural causes in any case. Committing crime is completely wrong, I understand and agree, but justice must apply to everyone. If it had been about criminal gangs in this way, the Police will unnoticed enter the criminal network, criminals reveal their secrets to the police without them being aware of it. The police use the negative that exists in the boys’ will to access money in an illegal way where they have seen it in society’s ideal advertising of wealth which is a weakness, and that weakness is used against themselves. Now the police are pitting them against each other with a subconscious proposal of thought, words that they have put in their subconscious. It is the subconscious suggestion that they experience as their own thoughts, and it follows it automatically. They put the boys in a psychotic state where they become afraid of each other. That way, they can get criminals to kill, shoot each other. One can believe that the Police would never do that. It is true that they do not want it openly, but in this way where it is not possible to prove, then they want to do it. I have felt and experienced that on my own skin. Let the police see that you are armed, and they will shoot you. It is the same when they know that you are armed, you are a danger to the Swedish kingdom. The police do not manufacture products, it’s all just about crime and they go on day after day. They can go on like this in one’s whole human life without any problems where they have the one, they are investigating under control, and it is not a life that one lives, it is worse than war. In war you experience the awfulness outside your body, but they enter our psyche and all that breaks is us who break in our mental state, where they can make us make wrong decisions that lead us right into death. It is we who are crushed, and it is we who lose all the human in us. We become just one thing, wound a zombie who tries to keep the mask that everything is OK, while the power runs killer orgy on us. The way they do it is that they say everything possible to one without taking one into account, in a brutal way with full force and with everything they can handle. Then they let us wrestle with our own conscience where we cannot tell anyone and so it goes day after day for decades. Everything that is in us they use against us, our emotions everything. In some countries the power gets the truth and people disappear where they are physically and mentally damaged by the power, but here in Sweden they torture one mentally over 20 years, then they damage a deception allowed for life with lies. When we die or are about to die then they transfer guilt on ourselves so that it should be claimed to be our own fault. We have done it ourselves; no one has forced us. They can split but what’s worse, they can hurt entire families. You do not live a free life, it is worse a prison, because in words they harm us and

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lead us into traps that the state has approved and laid out. Their words are suggestion instruction to actions. In words, they can get you to make any mistake. In this way, they commit the murder of people of their choice. They have told me “The more criminals use violence, the easier it is to crush and imprison them”. I think everyone’s lives are valuable even to people who commit crimes. I’m not an enemy to anyone on this planet, nor to you, who have committed crimes? Tomorrow it may happen to all of us that our children end up in a dispute with power. A small mistake and they have the police over them. I have said everything that has happened to me so that you will know what you are dealing with when you enter a collision course with power and the judiciary. I do not question your actions and I do not judge anyone. I just note that criminals are not the only ones who commit fraud crimes and who murder people. It’s the easy way to access money illegally. Here you see how fraud and murder are connected when you climb up to power where it is even committed in a legal way, down the murders they do it with advertising and a smile. Values ​​are served to us where the truth is sacred. We believe in it while when one realizes that in reality it is lies that the state constantly uses is standard. They do not see it as a lie. It is something for them necessary for it to contribute to society for some political purpose. A lie that benefits them and everything is OK. They do not threaten but they kill. They do not go armed but they kill. They kill legally and all of them are part of the network of the rich power hierarchy elite. One cannot even classify state atrocities as murder. They build carefully, shortcuts where they can withdraw from all responsibility as fine righteous, just good while criminals should be fought with more imprisonment. As soon as they say they want to build more prison immediately, they are no better. All those in the past, no matter what political party they belong to, they have all closed their eyes to this way of annihilating the population. This is because they have all used that method. What has happened to all the people who have been injured, they have died. The law should apply in both directions. Those up there are armed with weapons, and we do not carry weapons. There is nothing special, sacred, grand, or noble about you. According to human values ​​that the state has planted in our heads that in reality everything is sacred, starting with the state and then the whole mess of values ​​that are part of the grand rich hierarchy of power elite. All values ​​are sacred except the only thing that is not sacred is our and our children’s lives and the safety of us ordinary people. Our performance image with blind faith in the state leads us and our children to the grave. The more we believe in them the more they can harm us. We should see our lives as the most sacred on this planet. Those up there are not important or special, it is we who are important to each other, ordinary people. We must question everything we have been taught, for our own good. They have taught us to keep quiet and to obey them. To hell with them, when they kill us. They are magnificent, righteous, just, they own and have a monopoly on the truth, they rule over life and death. Such a thing does not exist, it is a delusion that is served to us around the clock in the media from the power to us ordinary people. Have a rule “do not harm anyone, do not kill anyone, do not take anyone else’s property that does not belong to you, do not deceive anyone, do not harass anyone in any way”. If you follow the rules then it cannot be wrong, you can be ashamed and with that shame maybe you can live with. But if you have killed someone, then you will regret it but

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there is no turning back from that guilt. There is no rule that says criminals must kill each other, throw weapons and drugs. Of drugs you can never think clearly, you have a powerful weapon your brain, you just have to clear it of toxins and then you can think and use it as you should. Kill no one, have them as friends. Always assume that you will meet a friend. See how Sinful with a smile kills thousands of people. If they have sold thousands of Estim products, they have ended as many lives as possible, and no one stops them. It is because they have the state behind their backs as support for it is something gigantic that the state is running while they are silent, are silent as snails about the terrible crime. Sinful is just a chain loop that carries death on to us and our children. When we humans are locked up in prison then some of us die, we never become who we once were. You only make your families sad, do not do it for their sake, they are the most important wealth you have. For money, you can buy a super-modern prison house where you insulate and lock yourself in. It is better to be poor but to have your family and social security with friends and family. I am poor but there does not seem to be enough punishment that the Swedish state wants to punish me with. That’s why they took my bond to my family from me. They have taken my body from me. They killed me. You are in a gang and the other gang are people you have not met before. Do not commit crimes, cooperate with each other instead just as power does. Regardless of whether we are Swedes or Immigrants regardless of religion, race, or political opinion, when we end up in prison we are treated like animals by power. We are treated by the state as animals even in freedom as you see in my example. In there we are equal, people without dignity. And when we come out because of that crime and that prison sentence, we cannot get a job. They have treated me like an animal and worse than animals at home, they reach us no matter where we are. Power is used by smart intelligent people who have attended the criminology college. They are masters at making a prank on all of us, which is not difficult to do because they have been told all our secrets and our personal qualities that we have revealed. With that, they lead us into the abyss that they want to lead us into. How bad it should be for us depends only on the characteristics of those who speak, what feelings they have in relation to us. If you are wondering how, you can kill people without getting caught in jail, ask the state, politicians, the police, psychiatric care, public care, media and so on because they know how to kill people from their own experience. Take in one hand a loaded weapon and in another Estim any of hundreds of varieties. That pistol bullet can hit us all and it is very severely punishable by the authorities, it leads you into prison. The Estim is even worse weapon than that gun. it is a terrible evil death trap. It is not talked about, because it comes from the top down to all of us. It is so effective and deadly. That’s why it’s so quiet about it, that they can continue to lead infinitely into death so many unwanted people for one reason or another. We die from that pistol bullet; we suffer for a short while then we are dead, but we no longer suffer anymore. The Estim is not punishable by the state because it is not uncontrolled widespread danger to society. It is not a danger to those up there because they know what that device is for something, they will protect their families with knowledge about it. But some of us are not well informed, we do not know because there is no information about it and then they lead us into the trap as they have done to me. It is intended for all of us who are specially selected for the transformation from normal too

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sick for life, to deathbed. So, if it’s the criminals who are committing crimes and it’s just the ones who are the bad ones, how come I could be so hurt because of society. No ordinary people have hurt me. None of them have hurt me. It’s the police who have never let me go and left me alone. Though I cannot prove it and they will surely deny all that as something completely impossible. They have held me and pressured me when with psychological torture for 20 years and more. I did not get the human right to serve my crime instead, now they have injured me for life to death. Feeling mentally ill is one thing, you can stop using the junk poison medicines whenever you want but to be injured with a nerve agent Estim and have half your body dying and what’s worst now I cannot stop medicines now I am a slave of pharmaceutical companies. I turn into an overweight corpse that is in the phase of decay. Humanity is so happy to place a propaganda image where they help people in need so that everyone sees their commitment. But no one has ever helped me, no one has saved me from anything. Those who have saved me are my family and the Swedish power has turned me around so that I lost the most valuable thing to my family. I needed to be rescued with information about the harmful neurotoxin electrical product Estim. Who the hell would think that the state harms people to death, I was not prepared for that? It is the state that has allowed and used all means to prevent the truth about this fucking estimate. Now it is injuries that have taken my body away from me, continue to take and now take my mind as well. It is only now that I realize why they talk to me they want to hurt me and drive me crazy. Everything was fine as long as I had contact with my family and friends but when voices came in thanks to them, I am now dying in loneliness in a foreign country that has deprived me of everything, my dignity, my body, my family and they have stolen 15 years of my life with lies, even if it turns out that they are not lying, I come out of what they are doing, with an important detail “I come completely destroyed and dying from their police investigation”. My life is not worth living any more now. For 15 years they have talked to me and with that they have taken me away from my old life. Now it’s injuries that erase me piece by piece, I feel divided and it’s a terrible feeling all the bands I’ve had are obliterated, dissolved, and die. I forget who I am, that I have had a family once upon a time, that I have had a childhood, a life in my homeland with my family and friends when I felt joy and was healthy. My will for everything dies. It feels like those injuries are spreading to the brain. In a year, if I live that long now, I will not be the person I am now. My personality changes at the same rate as the injuries worsen and the pain grows. My perception of reality falls apart. I no longer experience reality as normal people do, rather all organisms experience their reality in a natural way but not me. Here it is the body that loses its function. It feels like these injuries are spreading to the brain. Now it is the brain that also loses its function. When I fall asleep, the obedient person I feel and suffer from simulates as if someone is shouting at me and verbally abusing me throughout the night when I sleep. When I wake up then I understand that the terrible suffering comes from injuries. Only when I am awake do I experience silence. Then you can imagine how I feel, I die physically in pain and mentally where my personality is massacred and shattered into small parts where I am no longer a person but instead, I am fragmented memories of a person who has lived once upon a time in this body. In words, for over 20 years, they have changed my habits, my behavior, all my

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human qualities and my whole personality. Even the first time I have injured myself in a different one, I have wondered how I could have become so crazy in the head. What’s happening to me? They are the ones who drove me crazy and sent me that night to a closed psychiatric clinic in Trollhättan. There they have scared the life out of me and also, they have given me question marks where I have to ponder whether something has happened or has not happened to me that was not allowed to happen to me there. Events that have not been answered and that have been pondered over for decades destroy one and create a mentally awful lot of suffering. I’m not sure if anything has happened to me, it’s not important anymore. I do not even care, but they have used that question mark against me. They have injured me for life because of that night at a closed psychiatric clinic in Trollhättan. Because of them, I’ve had a nervous breakdown. This state has physically harmed me with that nerve agent Estim legally and those damages are fatal. It was not enough for those with everything that has happened to me before through my life, so when I had surgery for inguinal hernia, I got even more question marks that I have to ponder. It felt different with worse injuries. my left leg is dying. After surgery I got the same pain as the ones, I got from the Estim but now also on the left leg. It spread rapidly from knee to hip. Now both injuries are compounded with each other where I do not feel half my body with all the different torture pains. I think my leg will need to be amputated, although it is not possible because now it has come up to the hip, so it is death that applies to me now. There you see in what situation I am in, and they continue to talk to me. Now they say to me, “Vahid you have believed in us, have listened, and followed our challenges. That’s all we needed from you. We had you, all the advice we have given you was just for us to pass the time with you. In time you will go into what you have gone through”. Look at the words, how it sounds. I do not even speak like that, and I do not even use such language. It is true that it is an individual who lies behind those words. That’s what I remember very well. They say that to me now so you can imagine and understand that their words hurt in the soul now. Now when I say this openly, they will say that I imagine everything, and they can forcibly redeem me in a mental hospital. But I will tell ordinary people on this planet so that you know what the state is and what fraud they are. As I even do, they lead me into a dark abyss and the end of my life. Wherever I have come in contact with government institutions, they have cut me piece by piece and killed me, made me disabled physically and mentally. I have believed in them. I have seen them as something honest and did not understand why criminals are so cursed and angry at the state. I understand you now. They also drive you crazy for a minor crime. Considering and realizing that I will die, I intend to say something more, all criminals are all dark individuals like myself. You have my sympathies for the rest of my short life that I have left to live. These injuries give me the hell of death where I cannot breathe of pain and anxiety that pushes me all the way to the moment of death that when a person dies a real natural death, although it happens to me several times a day and it grows in strength. Suffering breaks my heart so that I find it harder and harder to think rationally clearly and logically. I feel exactly how I lose the ability to think clearly. My soul disappears from this world. The Swedish authorities have made an effort to make me as injured as possible. They want to impress on how I have suffered badly to such an inhuman extent that “Keraterm” (Holocaust

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camp I’ve been in) pales in comparison now with the hell they have given me here in the western democratic country with human rights Sweden. Not only have they taken away my human rights, but they have massacred my body. They have treated me as if I belonged to a lowly race. This democracy hurts in my body and soul as in hell. This is how Sweden uses and lives up to its traditional diplomatic spirit to maintain peace in its country. Sweden stands up to its name and this is the true face of what Sweden really is. Sweden strikes where it hurts the most. Instead of judging me according to human rights once I have confessed, they have taken my life because I am dying now. They also attack our children, in front of our own eyes. A little disturbing noise where they release a little at a time to our children. They begin in infancy immediately, so that they are disturbed in the mental development that will lead children to difficulty concentrating. The aim is that children will not achieve more success later in life. They should fail in life just as their parent did. Estim is the main way to kill a person without going to jail. They already know what will happen to me, every state on this planet knows it but not ordinary people including me. by the way, we must put my mistakes on one side of the wave of justice and on the other side of what has happened to me in this country, we will see how guilty I am. I’m not whole anymore. Sometimes when I listen to music, I theoretically experience it as noise. I do not understand what is happening to me. Will I die? All that I have said I have never experienced in my life before I hurt myself with the “Estim” a little more than two years ago. I take the medication as something that gives me an artificial dream. Now I realize that I have been taking those medications in vain for decades. The call for propaganda that comes from the state, which I have believed and which we all ordinary people believe in, where they say if you feel bad mentally, you should take your medication so that everything will be fine and OK. This is what they spread in the media one of hundreds of government guidelines and calls. Give me my body back and I will immediately feel good mentally again. They cannot repair nerves, but they do not mind damaging our nerves, taking them from us and massacring our bodies. Without nerves the body dies so this is the most serious crime in human history in peacetime. Then I tested it Estim and since I had surgery, I dive straight down to the ground right into death. The person I once was no longer exists. In connection with mental illness, they warn in the media about depression as something horrible and deadly where people take their own lives for no reason as unpredictable, and they should treat it with something that massacres brain ECT. This is where psychiatric care begins to lie to people, where they say it helps individually from person to person. When they lie, it is not a crime and this lie leads straight into something that cannot be called a life but rather a hell, a dying process. In fact, they cause injuries, a death depression from hell where one wants to commit suicide due to massacred brain body that loses its function. You are not whole; you are massacred mutilated instead. The only reason that the person has gone on the criminal legal fraud is because of the state that hypers itself as the just through the media while serving the death to all of us as help. A fraud that never ends. We ourselves must sacrifice our civil personal integrity anonymity where we say this all openly at our own expense for there to be a change in society. Throughout history, ordinary people have always paid with their lives to contribute to society. We listen to them as they mislead and divide us with various negative qualities. We

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should start listening to each other instead. Throughout my life in Sweden, I have said a dozen times on different occasions with different people that I prefer a quick death, for example as a heart attack. I’m not particularly afraid of going to hell. The way to die is human to me. But I have said that I fear a prolonged death in pain like cancer. They have listened to me over the years, and they have given me exactly what I have feared, something even worse and more horrible ways to die, than cancer. The Swedish kingdom is a bit like the film character Wish Master, where they have chosen me. They have received my first wish where I will die of electrical damage with a sea of ​​different ways to obey at the same time. The second wish is that now that I have fallen into that death trap, when in the horror of my obedience I say all that openly so now I can even become a hero who saves humanity with the truth about the worst of the worst on the planet. If I had the third wish, I would use it now with pleasure. I wish that everyone who is involved in any way and who has led me into this death, I wish that they all follow exactly the same fate as me. I wish you all feel what you have given me. Then justice is served. You are committing crimes against humanity when you give it to people. What I wish for you is not even a crime, it’s legal right now. Thanks to them, image of me has become bizarre, shameful, humiliating and insulting. They have turned me into a clown that people will laugh at, rather the whole planet will laugh at me because I am a disgrace. A clown, who will entertain Swedish society and the population. When you have no problems in life, when you are healthy then you have a sharp brain where you think and notice everything with ease. You are at a 100% level. When you have started taking medication for mental illness then you fall down to 70% where you are no longer the person you were when you were healthy. I who have been injured with the death trap Estim so my brain has fallen to and is close to 30% now. But when I take Lyrica to lower anxiety then I have fallen to 5%. I’m not exaggerating everything is true as I have said. Then I die mentally while I still exist physically. I feel like I’m 80 years old now. This is abnormal. On the one hand, the state constantly talks about sexual harassment, sexual exploitation, sexual harassment where they say in advertising “You have the right to your body”. Is that really so? Am I entitled to my body? This country has just physically taken half of my body away from me. When you hear in the news where they say that a prominent person in society has bought sex from prostitutes, where the power hangs on you as an example of how you should not be, you feel the shame how they reach you when you hear this. Then you think I do not want to be in this man’s place now. This is how the state has hyped up and served it as something terrible while neurotoxin is perfectly OK. They frighten us with a sense of shame so that we should be afraid of them so that we ourselves do not commit the wrong thing and end up in the news flow as sexual criminals. They silence us in a dozen different ways. Committing that crime is wrong, but it’s not wrong when you because of the state goes on something equivalent to Novichok. My pain is growing. My body dies and my soul dies with it because of the torture as the invisible for law tool that is driven by the democratic country Sweden that cares about all people equal value, human rights, equality between men and women. They care about all this but not for those who get dead nerves in half their body. This is the reality we live in Sweden; this is my life. It’s a fantastic dream state death trap when you think a little carefully. Only in a decade do they isolate an

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individual or person away from other people who confuse and mislead the person into a death trap that the authorities do not happen to see exist for any reason. People who are not harmed by it -Estim cannot even imagine the suffering, taken from hell to reality on Earth. Now you are aware that they are talking to you, that you have been injured, that those injuries lead to a mental collapse. It gets worse and worse with each passing day. De Estim Damage is of such a nature and has the property of behaving exactly like computer trojan virus. It destroys the body, at the same time it destroys the brain and eventually it erases the memories of the brain, erases personality, childhood, human emotions everything and the whole mind. Not a single human trait has become untouched in me, even the whole of existence falls apart. So, in the end you are no longer sure of any of all this that you have experienced and suffered so now that you forget you can see it as the Trojan virus deletes its traces after which you cannot prove anything that you not even remember, and which one is not sure. For 15 years, they have damaged my psyche with suggestion words that have distorted and changed damaged my mental health and my personality. Now it is the injuries that do all that they have done but with 100% stronger force. It is only now that their words have harmful meaning. I cannot do anything I should and thus I cannot listen to them. I’m taking medication. It has never mattered if I take medication or not. I have heard them in the same way 15 years ago and until now. That’s why they’re real people talking to me and that’s how the police investigate crimes. What is left is a shell that looks like the human it once was. I will lose my mind, I will die from this, but before I do, I will say all this openly while I have a mind and while I can remember that it is not OK with what has happened. with me. I’m not an evil person, I do not deserve such death. I actually want to live. But the pain and despair that I feel drives me to go to Dignitas and take my life there, just to stop suffering so bad. I cannot exist with the decay of this body there is no one who can. I have been taking Seroquel and Zyprexa for decades because I felt bad after the police crushed me piece by piece. When they have crushed me, they do not want to imprison me, instead they continued to crush me further. They went to the final phase where they talk to me, and I hear voices. Now the picture of me as mentally ill is complete. There is only one last piece missing and that is what the state carefully protects from people not being told about. Electrical damage Estim ECT and so on. Now that I’ve fallen into the trap of hurting myself so now, I’ve got all the worst of the worst symptoms of mental illness and the fact that they keep talking to me whether I want to or not, I now realize that they had not had any good intentions against me. Now the state trap is completely completed. Now they lean back in a relaxed position and enjoy the performance, where I chat all this openly and where I am ashamed on an epic scale because if I had not been hurt by it Estim I would never say a word. They have put me against the wall. Now I can choose, I can keep quiet and die in silence knowing that they continue to sell it completely undisturbed, and more people will go into this. I know and am sure that they are and will eventually lead our children into this death, as they have done with hundreds of thousands of other people. Now I’m the bad guy who does and spreads a negative bizarre full ad about myself just like when criminals do, where they say Fuck Aina (Fuck Police). Everyone now hears me as the bad one, no one hears the police there and no bad advertising is heard that damages the image of them. It’s

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quiet there. They’re just fine, they monitor computers and eavesdrop on our phones and nothing else. That they could talk to us is impossible according to the power. If they had acknowledged that they can do so, then perhaps the population will revolt then it means that no one is free. They come to everyone into their dreams, where they can make people hurt themselves, take their own lives. Then freedom does not exist. If they remove this opportunity, then they cannot cope with crime. Therefore, they have created the image that we are mentally ill when we hear voices, and they continue with the next and the next through time while no one dares to question them. On the news, I’ve heard that mental illness is the second biggest reason why people will get sick, and it will cost an incredible number of billions, it applied to all of humanity. To me, it’s clear why that’s the case. It’s because power comes to all of us when we sleep. You can choose whether to believe what I say or not. But I say that if you try to commit a crime, you go right into the trap, where you are doomed to guaranteed failure. It’s because those who commit crimes do not know what I’m saying now. This is the reality we live in. Freedom does not exist. It is seen how they speak to us that should be revealed so that humanity may know the truth that it is possible. If they find out about it, then people will refrain from committing crimes. I’m not going to say Fuck Aina, Fuck Police. When the police stop me on the street, I will answer their questions in a respectful way. They are not the ones who have ruined my life. They have never had a problem with me, and they will never have a problem with me. It is police investigators, personally exactly those who talk to me who I point out as the main perpetrators and the whole of Swedish society who have almost executed me. But I will never ever see the police as something honest and fair. To me, they are well-trained potential cold-blooded killers, a tool that exercises power over the population to the state. Many times, they do the right thing but sometimes if they want to kill an innocent person, they can kill any of us without any major punishment for them. It has never mattered who I am deep down and if I like this country. I have had over 25 years only love for the Swedish country and the Swedish people. I have not committed any crimes, but they have only driven me insane. They gave me psychological beatings for decades. I struggled to feel good and get to keep my sanity and it was not difficult for me when I was not harmed by the Estim. I can get out of any difficult situation, but I cannot get out of these injuries because this is murder. They want to remove the innocent image of me. They want to make me someone who talks all the worst about Sweden because now I cannot say anything good. I do not blame the Swedish people because they are just ordinary people like any ordinary people on the planet. All ordinary people on this planet, regardless of religion, race, political opinion or whatever it may be, are all good, valuable and all deserve to live a normal and dignified life without violence, murder, and war. We are all deceived and we are meant to be, so that they can lead us. They think for us so that we do not have to think with our brains. The Swedish people struggle and go to work every day to be able to support themselves just like me. Of course, they are the ones who live in freedom. They have human rights because they are Swedes, and the police leave them alone because they are their own people. The Swedish police do not enjoy the results of their work that will have an entire Swedish family exterminated. Injury to one’s own people does not give pleasure to the police parasites who

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talk to people all night. Pleasure comes first when it comes to immigrants like me. But they are completely unimportant as much as I am. They do not decide what power does. Power is society and we are society when we have to give our voice to them. Maybe if I had lived in Bosnia in such circumstances as I am now, maybe the police would have been and treated me in a more humane way because I am one of their own citizens. I feel that those who speak to me have intended for me to fulfill a purpose in which I cry out like an injured animal. This in turn is an advertisement for how bad it is to deal with the police as immigrants. It can make many immigrants not come to Sweden and it stimulates the idea that immigrants should want to return to their countries. One who has suffered infinitely worse in Sweden than in his home country in war, creates sweet music of calm and contentment. Sacrifice gift 2, peace be preserved. That’s the kind of image I get of them when I think back in time. I want to leave here, but you have told me that no matter what country I go to, this is what awaits me there. Wherever I go now, I take death with me because I’m dying. Society has had that information about the dangerous products and kept the truth away from all of us about what it really is for something. I did not know what it was, and I fell into that trap. Now I also know what they knew all along. Now I know it’s just a matter of how long it will take before other people, or our children fall into this deadly trap. They have taken my life; I do not allow them to take my child’s life too. They take life for granted if you go on this. I’m saving your life, with the truth. Sweden has given me a single alternative now that I should take my own life so that this pain Agony stops and disappears. It gets 8 times worse from month to month. I’m dizzy from this and have no desire to touch that part of my body with my hands. They have castrated me, even if someone who has been injured in the foot by Estim for example, so after over two years they are also castrated because the pain causes you to lose will, will exactly die for everything, thus also will for sex. In this way you are castrated even though I have lost feeling in half my body, so it also affects me. I would be overjoyed if I had been castrated chemically and with surgery if it had only been about that. I have had a bad experience in the same way, almost exactly as Sergei Skripal has done. I would also have been overjoyed if I had been mentally ill, at worst, when I had a nervous breakdown due to the police and psychiatric care 20 years ago. That is nothing and cannot be compared with these injuries. It is the damaged nerves that send distorted signals, and the brain is disturbed and damaged by this torture that is going on around the clock. This is on another level. One suffers from neurosis. What the Psychiatric Service talks about in the media about various severe mental symptoms where they say that the mentally ill are based on an event, that they are paranoid, restless, angry, violent, nervous that they have difficulty sleeping, are in fact signs of electrical damage. nerves that produce builds transform the thought process into a psychotic state. Everything dies for me, my dreams, plans, not even music help me anymore. Training does not help me anymore either, so I cannot train strength training. I only run for half an hour. Before I trained to be fit and now, I train running to stay alive and that my pain would be reduced a little for a little while so that I feel normal for at least a few hours, but it is far from normal. Since I now have to take Seroquel to be able to sleep, I now have problems with obesity as well and with that I now go against the risk of getting diabetes,

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kidney damage and liver damage. Only now do I see what Zyprexa, Seroquel, Gabapentin and Lyrica are for. They are for electrical damage; they reduce pain a little and there is nothing else that can. For estimation Seroquel is enough, but if you have received ECT then you must have really powerful medicine and it is Zyprexa, to be able to sleep. Without those medications, I would never be able to sleep again in my life now. They have made me addicted to the medications in the same way as people who are addicted to dialysis. What should I do now, I should go to Psychiatric Care and seek help because of the physical and mental injuries that come from them and that they have caused? Why would I want that, I’m not depressed I’m just dying? Is it the case that, as soon as you hear voices, you are directly owned by psychiatric care? I do not want to see them with my eyes again ever in my life. That’s where Estim comes from. When ECT is legal then this is also legal according to the Swedish state. They want us citizens not to commit crimes, that we should not hit each other, that we should not swear, harass, insult each other. We must follow the moral ethical image that society serves us. That’s why we never question them. But when they start torturing us mentally through the police for decades, their actions are harmful, they are not visible and cannot be proven. They destroy us from within, so if we say something, then psychiatric care awaits with threat intervention where they have been given a legal right by the state to intervene when they see that a person, according to them, feels mentally ill. Then it is the police who come to one’s home together with psychiatric care and they forcibly redeem one. Well, when you are in there then you have lost your voice, human rights do not exist for one then. Power rules over one. What’s worse, I have read that in Sweden ECT is mandatory. In Sweden, in other words, murder is mandatory. So, if the “Doctor” decides and if he wants it, he can force it treatment on one. Then they say we have done everything we could to help you we cannot do more for you. In fact, they murdered one. You go through a dying process from hell. If your child has committed suicide, do not be so sure that it is only your child who has come up with it just like that. Police investigators, those who talk make no difference between people who commit criminal crimes harm people and people who have not made a fly too close, even children are not holy to them. If you think they would never do that, then you can see when there will be war then it is the worst of the worst standard. Go 1000 years back in time and you will see that this is standard a bit all over the planet. The police have stated that they can eavesdrop on telephones, internet traffic, in other words our homes. What they have ruled out acknowledging is that the police surveillance equipment also includes a microphone. Listening does not affect us but that they can talk to us, it affects us. The state has trained its people for hundreds of years, where they use our feelings towards us and they turn people towards each other and in this way, they divide us from each other, shattering our relationships. We feel ashamed if we were to be branded as mentally ill and to hear voices is in other people’s eyes completely invalid (we have no voice). Lies and untruths are directly connected to us. It is in this way the one who is branded as mentally ill, that the power has chosen and given in to, it is the one that the population will distance itself from. That person will not be defended by the population. Power takes one as when a wolf takes a cattle animal aside where it can slaughter its prey completely undisturbed with ease, without

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anyone ever questioning them. This is what they have always done. I have never committed and would never commit a crime therefore they have built an image of me as mentally ill so that if I say all this now openly no one will believe me, and it will have consequences for me. But I do not care about consequences when I have realized that it is a matter of time before I have died. I’m dying. I think they have expected me to be able to do this, so they have done it this way from the beginning. It was an alternative of all possible. 15 years ago, when they started talking to me, I had a lot of stuff that I should be ashamed of. The idea was that I should be judged, everything should come out and I would be ashamed to death, and they have crushed me and forced me to admit. I do not want to say any of it openly at that time, and then they have talked to me that I am a victim and that I should not be ashamed, people will understand me, that I should say everything openly so that everyone hears. Now that I’m dying, when I in my desperation write all this now openly, it’s raining with threats from them now. They say no one will believe you. Everyone who has written it openly has ended up in a mental hospital. It’s known you should be branded as crazy. If you go out openly with your name, then everyone will talk about you openly and everything about you will come out. You will not be able to see people in the eyes of shame, you will lose everything. You can just as easily pack your stuff and leave here because once you have said it this way, there is no place for you in this country anymore. It will not be as you think it will be, say nothing. When I think back in time, I realize that it is precisely those who have sent me in there that night at a closed psychiatric clinic in Trollhättan. They have evoked my obsessions that would make me feel even worse for me to be crushed and to admit crime. They are the ones who have started my social phobia because they can ignite any negative trait in such circumstances and under a condition that there is a basis for it inside our lives, which would never have ignited and arisen without them. During the day, we live our lives in freedom in the democratic country where everyone has equal rights and obligations in equality and justice. Then at night they enter our homes as invisible very real intruders right into our bedroom into our psyche. They can come to us without us being able to do anything. But we can never get to them not even being able to look into their safe hold. Not only do they talk to us, so in addition to this, they can be unnoticed at the same time enter into our children’s dreams where they can subconsciously lead our children into any trap. They can drive them straight to the cemetery and they can do the same with ourselves. We can only look; we can do nothing about it. What the state approves of as crimes such as sexual harassment and sexual exploitation where riots are created in the media so we ordinary people accept it as the worst of the worst while millions of people across the planet have disappeared completely unnoticed in genocide with deadly products which has a purpose to kill, neutralize in the physical and mental way from this world and we like to bite into the state honey trap and play with them regarding this, where women are victims and men are usually role models, sex offenders. While the power restricts human rights where they fabricate about this then when we ordinary people see and discover it then we do not dare to say a single word about the crime that is going on where many know that it is something that hurts people to death. We do not dare to sniff out a word about power that behaves like fascist evil that extinguishes human lives. Just look at what has happened to me, is it a crime

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or is it not a crime. We raise our voices about sexual abuse where in my eyes it is magnified by society as the worst crime. While they lead people into death, and no one says a word about it even though they know it’s going on. Everything is OK only they and their children have not fallen into this trap. Show people who have lived their lives without severe mental strain in love peace and harmony, usually say that they feel every day the special feeling, the overwhelming the divine in everyday life that they cannot explain. How could you explain that? How about when you think of me. I have established direct contact with the other side. Even, they talk to me. They have almost wiped me out, even though it has already been done. Be happy that the divine does not begin to speak to you. But calm down, do not worry. If you are your own citizen of the same race, religion, and political opinion in the country in which you live, you will continue to feel the divine every day. They have investigated me from the first day when I came to Sweden, I’m sure of that. It was the beginning to the end of my life. Then they have not revealed themselves to me and when they have done so then they have claimed to be the ones who saved my life. They have talked and they continue to talk in a positive way to me, while I am dying now at the end and have only had a bad time because of them and their good advice. And it is precisely this that would claim to be what will make me believe in the end that all this is a disease that I must have imagined. It will work, what will convince me are the injuries. It is this as a reason and purpose for existence that the electrical appliances of hundreds of different varieties exist. Power thins us out into death where we cannot complain because our brain is damaged, and we do not remember. When I say this openly, the meaning is also that everyone who reads my words that I have written should also be convinced that I only imagine everything and that everything is a product of my imagination, where none of it is possible and with that, they can continue on with the next one they need to investigate for any past life mistakes and so it goes on. Now I have been scarred in my body and my mind. I resorted to alcohol in my desperation just to make the anxiety go away for a short while. In combination with the Lyrica, my normal thinking was completely knocked out, so I was more ashamed than ever. Everything that I have thought and that I was afraid could happen to me, all that has happened to me. And that’s what’s become too much for me. Now that’s enough, that’s why I’m writing all this openly, because everything I’ve been exposed to in this country is not just a criminal act. What I have been subjected to is a criminal fascist act. This is Fascism. I am so injured that in such a condition as my body is in now, only people from the extermination camp from Josef Mengele’s ward have come out who are as injured as I am. Extermination camp prisoners who were as thin as a skeleton cannot be compared to the state in which I am now. It would be better if I had died when I tested it Estim. All that I have told you I have suffered and continue to suffer. How do I keep quiet about all this and knowing that I’m dying? They have told me. Everything you look at out there is pretending, but if a single hair falls on the head of any of our people because of you, you will rot alive. You will call for help and no one will help you, they will only look at you while you die. On another occasion they have said, we do all this for you, people will see you as a hero at another you will go crazy with all this in the end. Another time they told me, the last thing you will hear before you die is us. It’s us you will hear. I can choose from the 20900

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sentences which I want, and they continue with it, all that is true. I always just tell the truth. They can deny and all they can testify for each other but prove it with a video where I am there and say something different than what I have told about. In video, I also believe in. Even if I imagine an event and even if I had imagined everything, I have told you, but I do not, it does not matter. I’m not important, my life is not important to anyone but myself, because I will die of this in any case, or go crazy with this pain. I’m not imagining these injuries. I have told the police about Estim. They have done nothing to stop the sale of the neurotoxin products. I have told the health service that they have not stopped it either. It is the power that is driving this death trap on all of us under false claims where in the worst case it is called fraud and that you will get away with it so easily while no one is punished for it. They say Sweden has been shaken by crime and murder. But Sweden has never been shaken by mass murder, where you see about the just law and order. It’s not me who spreads Estim neurotoxin to humans. It’s you up there doing it right now. It is you who according to you own the truth where you judge our actions by us ordinary people, while you yourself commit crimes against humanity. If our children get the electrical nerve toxin, we will see our children die like animals, in front of our eyes and there is nothing we can do to help them. I look at all this that I have said as cognitive therapy where I lighten my heart. But instead of paying to the Psychiatric care for cognitive therapy that has never helped me, those who have ruined my life, those who have led me into the grave, then I get here a cognitive therapy where I lighten my heart to the ordinary people over the whole planet that has not harmed me and that has not ruined my life. From this information, humanity benefits, I mean, and I’m just talking to the common people. The power of their media had all the time in the world to warn people and they have not done so. I do not want to have anything to do with any of them. So now you are all up to date with the truth about this nerve agent junk. If the intention was that I should be an advertisement for immigration to be stopped, then your Swedish power have succeeded very well. I wish I had never under any circumstances set foot in this country. I wish I had not come here. You just had to say what you will do to me, and I would go elsewhere. I know now comes the thought where everyone thinks, “if you think that Sweden has treated you so unfairly according to you, why did you come here, we still do not want you here”. I want to go but they have obliterated my bond to my old life. They have closed that way back to me forever. I can only go there like a dead man. I want what I once had. Give me Swedish justice my body back that you have taken from me, and we are rid of each other. When I think back on my life, I realize that the biggest disaster for me is that I was born. I wish I had never been born. Before, I want to see the world, experience something new. I have not seen anything, have never gone anywhere and now thanks to the humane, humane country of democracy Sweden, I will not be able to see anything because I am dying now. I do not want to see anything more, there is nothing to see. That’s what I want to say to Humanity. You are welcome.

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